Hello, Everyone
Posted: Sat Jul 11, 2009 11:45 pm
I discovered the site this evening and read a few forum posts. I'm impressed by everyone's behavior...courteous, helpful and supportive. Personally, I'm almost 50, and have spent over 30 years accepting myself. I blew one marriage apart five years ago, began living 54/114 (54 hrs male and 114 hrs female each week) until I chanced back into love with a female friend I hadn't seen in almost 20 years almost a couple of years ago and married her, thinking maybe I could be all-male-all-the-time. Unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on your perspective) I've come to the conclusion over the past few months that I'm not being true to my real self and want to get back to where I'm living en femme almost all of the time. I've concluded that it's my nature. I'm looking for kind support and friendship to help me through this, and I can give really practical advice based on my previous time en femme on everything from makeup to how I managed my voice to tucking, etc. I'm more a jeans-and-polo-shirt/jeans-and-Just-My-Size-t-shirt practical kind of gal instead of glam-and-dresses. I gained weight by denying myself who I am, and my most pressing issues are getting that "stress" weight back off and slowly being able to introduce my spouse to the ideas behind my need to dress and act how I feel as opposed to my physical genetic male attributes. If I wanted to, I could have edited this down, but I really didn't want to, so that anyone would have a reasonable sense about who I am, where I'm at and where I want to get to. (I come by wordiness honestly...my paternal grandmother was wordy, too.)
to the forum.