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So here's a little about myself. My name is Christian, i'm from Iowa, and i'm 16. Now i started dressing up in tights when i was about 4, and my mom didn't know that i was wearing her tights. Then i stopped for a long time until about a couple of years ago when my sister came home from college for the summer. She could bring her school computer home and she usually let me play games on it. So one day i went into her room looking for a game to play, and in my young mind i thought "hey it might be in her dresser". Sadly it was not, but i found something better. TIGHTS! Then all of my memories came back in a sudden rush. I was a little surprised by this and closed the drawer and went to the living room. Later that night she was at a friends house, and i wanted to wear her tights. So i went and got them and put them on. They felt so wonderful! So i went and got some panties and a bra, and they too felt just amazing to wear. So i took these upstairs to my room, and just sat there in them. When my sister came home later that night i was still wearing them. I thought to myself "i cant let myself get caught". The video shelf was in my room and it sat a little above the floor, so i just stuffed them under there. As the summer went on my collection grew and so did my desire to crossdress more. My collection before i went to camp had three pairs of tights, two pairs of panties, a bra or two, and a little dress. As i was away at camp my parents were cleaning my room and found my little stash, and when i came home i wasn't confronted at ALL. So i thought that i was in the clear. A couple of minutes after i had gotten home my sister and dad were out gardening my mom was in her chair. When i came and sat next to her she said "hey stop taking your sisters underwear". That was the worst thing that i could have heard. So i went to my room felt under the shelf and sure enough they were all gone. GREAT JUST GREAT. Now i knew that it wasn't going to be any trouble getting them back. It was trying to find a new hiding spot. Now with my share of clothes that i found, i found some weird things too i found a thong (i didn't know what that was then). I found her little bag under her bed that had "kinky" written on it. So i looked inside it. BOY WAS I SURPRISED. Now i've forgotten most of what i found in there but the things that i do remember in that bag were a thong that said "good girls need a good licking", (a year on the internet taught me what that meant), and a vibrator. So the summer ended she went back to college i tried on more of her clothes(pants, shirts, etc...). I found i liked wearing girls clothes. Then i went to high school and i couldn't wear panties or thongs or any thing like that, because we had p.e. every day. That would be murder in the locker rooms. So i didn't wear any girls clothes that much for freshmen year. Then this year came along and i decided hey i should try on a pair of panties. So i did and now i'm wearing panties everyday after school.



Sorry this was so long guys but its just been a story that i've had to tell. So i hope you understand.

Here are some questions that you guys can reply to if you want.
1.) All i have are a couple of panties, two bras, and that little dress. I also dont have my own car at the moment. So how can i get my own girly clothes to wear? (i also live in a small town and the nearest walmart is 45 minutes away)

2.) I want to come out to my parents that i like wearing girls clothes but i fear that things will just become more awkward between us. So should i wait and just do whatever i want when i move out, or should i open up to them?

Welcome, Christian.

Generally speaking, you'd be reasonably safe buying stuff from decent-sized stores away from your immediate area. It sounds embarassing but, if you go in and explain to the SA what you want (like it's for you), it should work out alright.

Hello Christian, I am glad you have joined us. Your story was sweet; that abrupt command from your mom must have been a shock.

Your questions have complex answers. It would be best if you initiated threads as separate posts.

Briefly:

Since you have limited mobility, you have to be patient and opportunistic about expanding your wardrobe.

As far as coming out to your parents, well there are lots of possible outcomes. This will be a long conversation.

Kelly

Hi, Christian, and welcome to the forum!


- SL

hello Christian


Erica

Hi Christian, to the forum. you are just starting your journey with crossdressing so take baby steps as this is a lifelong experience. there are lots of great girls here to help you so take your time to find your true self. It all comes down to self acceptance.

Hi Christian,

My name is zephyr, I believe we met briefly in the chat room, but it is a great pleasure to formerly meet you.




zephyr

Welcome to the forum, Christian. Don't take your sister's clothes, or anyone else's. That's just rude. Save your money, and when you get the chance, go buy your own stuff. And BTW, Walmart isn't the best place for good fem clothes.

Hi Christian, to the forum.

True, you shouldn't be taking your sisters clothes, but since you have limited options, it is an understandable choice because you have needs that need to be met.

Since your mother didn't jump all over you, and didn't embarrass you in front of your dad and sister, you might ask her for help. She already know, and she can either decide to help or just say no. Note that she didn't forbid you from wearing the clothes, she just told you to stop taking them. In my opinion, you have nothing to lose and everything to gain.

She may have some embarrassing questions, so just be honest with her. Let her know how serious you are and how much it means to you.

Hi Christian,
to the forum, it really helps to write things down that are on your mind and it is also a great help having advice from the huge mass of experience available here.
I would suggest you speak with your mother, she is already aware of your situation and did not forbid you from wearing girlie things so perhaps she will help you get some things to wear in private.
At 16 you have a long time to get used to your likes and dislikes so take your time, The most common used phrase on the forum is "Baby steps" and it is very true.
Wish you all the luck for the future
Hugs and Kisses
Joanne xxxxx

Hi, Christian,

Welcome Christian

HI Christiand welcome. Many years ago I had a modest wardrobe and kept hidden where I Thought it was safe. Well, I went away for a weekend and my Mom thought she'd clean my apartment as a surprise.Well she found my stash. She moved some of it around to make look neater and actually folded a couple of blouses. When I saw what she did I freaked. She never mentioned it and I didn't know how to even start a conversation. She died in'95 and it remained our secret. If anything, it brought us closer. Ican't say your situation is the same but from your Moms reaction, I think she loves you plenty. Moms can be confused, hurt and bewildered but she still loves you, no matter what. If and when you decide(If ever) to have the "talk", It probably won't be the easiest one you ever had. Good luck and reme
mber,Baby steps. Please let us know how things work out.