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Ok. Here I Am
Posted: Wed Oct 31, 2018 3:59 am
by Ankah
I’m going to get this out before I decide against it. I’ve been cross dressing since I was 8 or 9. It gave me a deep feeling of comfort. I have always struggled deeply with the secret girl inside of me. I compensated by playing sports and working in professions with hyper masculine environments. This of course only added to my inner conflict. I have dressed and underdressed secretly my entire life. The single time I went all out and dressed fully with make up, wig and heels was a revelation. I was able to see the Me that has had to hide inside. Unfortunately, I was unable to reconcile the satisfaction with the accompanying shame and never tried it again. I’ve got a bit of life under my belt now and am much less scared of the fact that this is a real part of who I am. I remain closeted and can never reveal this side of me to my wife or friends, but I’m so tired of pushing it down and feeling shame. Im so glad to have a safe place to open up and reveal myself and not feel afraid or different. Thanks, you all are the only people I’ve ever shared this with in 40 years
Re: Ok. Here I Am
Posted: Wed Oct 31, 2018 5:46 am
by SilverLady(SO)
Hi, Ankah, and welcome to the Haven!
- SL
Re: Ok. Here I Am
Posted: Wed Oct 31, 2018 6:23 am
by Anthony Simon
Welcome, Ankah.
Re: Ok. Here I Am
Posted: Wed Oct 31, 2018 2:47 pm
by Rikki
Ankah,
Welcome to the forum. You are not alone in keeping "it" buried and hidden from those around you. I too only dress when alone and never venture out except for Halloween back in 2004. Oh I miss that night, so.
Again, welcome and hope you find answers, advice and friends here in the Haven.
Rikki
Re: Ok. Here I Am
Posted: Wed Oct 31, 2018 4:12 pm
by DonnaT
Hi Ankah,
aboard.
Re: Ok. Here I Am
Posted: Wed Oct 31, 2018 9:20 pm
by KimberlyS
Welcome to the site Ankah.
kimberlys cd
joe in a skirt
Re: Ok. Here I Am
Posted: Wed Oct 31, 2018 11:19 pm
by CathyAnn
Hi Ankah. Welcome to the haven. Hope you'll enjoy it here.
Re: Ok. Here I Am
Posted: Thu Nov 01, 2018 7:32 pm
by Ankah
Thanks for the kind welcomes. I was really nervous to take the step to register and then get up the courage to enter my first post. Your response means a lot to me
Re: Ok. Here I Am
Posted: Sat Nov 03, 2018 1:46 pm
by Requal Jo
Hi Ankah and welcome to this friendly and supportive Haven.
We are all nervous and feel shameful when we start out in this venture. However, you now have found a forum to discuss your feelings and share your progress as you enjoy finding the girl within.
Re: Ok. Here I Am
Posted: Sun Nov 04, 2018 8:01 pm
by KimberlyS
Ankah it is ok we do not bite.