oh my goodness.... THANKYOU all on here
Posted: Thu May 23, 2019 7:21 am
I really don't know where to begin. I hope someone reads this and can offer any advice or words of support....
this may sound stupid but Ive had a fairly boring and sheltered life. I genuinely had no idea there were other people out there like me and I dont know why I havent found this forum sooner. Possibly because Ive not looked owing the confused feelings ive had
Long story short, as a child playing hide and seek I used to hide in my mothers wardrobe and soon learned how much smoother womens clothes were. I couldnt help but put them on occasionally. Then as a teen Id 'borrow' my younger sisters clothes everytime the house was empty. I was convinced I was just a 'weirdo'. my parents referred to a local man as such who used to live near us who was an open / public cross dresser.
Suffice to say as an adult with my own place, Ive been cross dressing secretly for a few years, and as a result my sexuality is confused to say the least. Ive felt so guilty hiding this from the girlfriends and ex wife through the years. I used to mainly cross dress a part of a private sexual act, but have recently started to cross dress day to day - although never out of the house.
The incredible sense of release, freedom and happiness I feel when Im cross dressed has been so liberating and for the first time Ive been buying clothes that actually fit rather than tring to squeeze into tiny underwear. Im never going to convince anyone Im a woman in appearance and I would die if anyone found my 'stash' of womens clothes, as I live in a shared house now. But I am desperate to stand before someone, as the 'other' me. I feel I need some external validation, but not judgement, to show that this other me really exists, outside my own head. If this sounds familiar, please let me know
this may sound stupid but Ive had a fairly boring and sheltered life. I genuinely had no idea there were other people out there like me and I dont know why I havent found this forum sooner. Possibly because Ive not looked owing the confused feelings ive had
Long story short, as a child playing hide and seek I used to hide in my mothers wardrobe and soon learned how much smoother womens clothes were. I couldnt help but put them on occasionally. Then as a teen Id 'borrow' my younger sisters clothes everytime the house was empty. I was convinced I was just a 'weirdo'. my parents referred to a local man as such who used to live near us who was an open / public cross dresser.
Suffice to say as an adult with my own place, Ive been cross dressing secretly for a few years, and as a result my sexuality is confused to say the least. Ive felt so guilty hiding this from the girlfriends and ex wife through the years. I used to mainly cross dress a part of a private sexual act, but have recently started to cross dress day to day - although never out of the house.
The incredible sense of release, freedom and happiness I feel when Im cross dressed has been so liberating and for the first time Ive been buying clothes that actually fit rather than tring to squeeze into tiny underwear. Im never going to convince anyone Im a woman in appearance and I would die if anyone found my 'stash' of womens clothes, as I live in a shared house now. But I am desperate to stand before someone, as the 'other' me. I feel I need some external validation, but not judgement, to show that this other me really exists, outside my own head. If this sounds familiar, please let me know
aboard.