Basically, life has a way of getting in the way; nobody ever said life was fair but one must learn to enjoy the little things and continue to survive! I recently rediscovered myself and would like to tell you a little about that event, because it means so much to me now. First of all, let me just say; I have been reading for hours the many comments made on this forum over the past week or so and have come to realize one important thing about the people who have shared on this forum and that is:
Everyone seems to genuinely care about the feelings and needs of the other members, both SO and CD, and I have appreciated their input immensely! I wish we could all go on a cruise together and really bond in person!
My Recent Coming Out...
As I mentioned, I had repressed memories (crossdressing and others) of my childhood and earlier marriages. I married a wonderful woman in 2001 and less than 2 years later was sent to Iraq for a year (US Army). I am out now! Our marriage has really been tested and is still growing and we are very much in love. Anyway, my wife was leaving to go out of town for a couple of weeks and during her preparation; she had made several comments to me while getting her clothes ready. Comments like, I think this would look good on you, or, I think you would look sexy in this outfit, etc. Apparently, I learned, she used to dress her little brother up as a girl in his earlier years (not to his liking but she enjoyed it, lol). Anyway, I have a little foot fetish (trust me it fits into the story, lol) and enjoy my wife's feet in the home, painted etc. While she was gone, I missed that little pleasure, so; while I was thinking about her comments, I painted my toe nails. I did this because I missed her, but in the act of doing this a flood of memories came back to me of my earlier years of crossdressing. It was very emotional. After crying and also elation and many other emotions; I went shopping and bought the first things to form an outfit that was on sale. I went home, shaved, tried them on and whallah! Darlene was back in my life!
It was so thrilling for me, April 14th was the day, and I will never forget it. I researched online and found TriEss (and this fourm) and contacted the chapter near me. I will be going to my first meeting this next weekend and I am so excited...and nervous! I also wrote a wonderful letter to my wife and at the right time, I shared it with her. In the letter I explained my repressed memories, and my recent re-discovery of Darlene and included a picture so she could see me en-femme without it being "in her face" so to speak. Her reply was simply, "it all makes sense now." She said the fact that I am considerate, loving, enjoys shopping, etc. and that these things were so out of character for her with other men as she had experienced in the past; that Darlene was probably a big part of why she fell in love with me. We have had other discussions since then and she is looking forward to visiting the Chapter as well. We have now gone shopping and she is helping me with my makeup. Today, in fact, will be the first day that we go out together as girlfriends; we are going to a movie, well if the rain and tornado warnings will give us a break!
This forum and the initial help from TriEss (the local chapter has a yahoo group) have been such a help and comfort to me. I appologize for the lengthy letter but so dearly wanted to share a little of my story with you ladies. I hope I do get to meet some of you in time and all of you through this forum. All girls need a big sister and I am so thankful to have all of you.
Darlene
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