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Here's a little ditty I wrote when I was 17

Like a mirage in the desert sand
I see you far off in this deserted land
You are the oasis of each day
Yet when I come close...
You fade away... you fade away... you fade away

Like a mirage in the burning heat
You keep me going while I'm on my feet
You quench the fire in my aching heart
Yet when wer'e close...
We seem to part... we seem to part... we seem to part

Like a mirage that forever moves on
You never stay, but fade with the desert sun
And I, like a fool, am a mirage too...
For I fade away...
As I follow you... as I follow you... as I follow you

Hi Rebecca,

That's a beautiful piece. I don't think it deserves to be called a "ditty," though--it has more staying power than that, I think. It's very musical, indeed. Have you written anything since? Do you still write? If so, please share, girl, share!

Love,
CJ

By the way, welcome to the board; I'm pleased to meet you!

Very, very creative Rebecca, some of you girls have soooooo much talent! And I really appreciate your sharing it with us, it wonderful!
Love,
Deborah

Hey Rebecca,

That is very nice, It spoke to my heart.
It speaks of reality.

Hi Rebecca,
I agree with CJ, Deborah and Darlene. It is more than a ditty because it
speaks
at many levels. It leaves me wanting to know more. I don't know if
you wrote it in simplicity or with deep thoughts of longing.

It touches me as I have wondered through life questioning what is real
and what is illusion.

If you have more, please share with us if you are comfortable.


Kersten

Hi CJ, Deborah, Darlene, Kersten,
I'm was quite taken aback by all your kind words It was written as a song back in 78-79, though I can't remember if it had any special significance other than trying to express myself. I wrote dozens of songs etc back then, Like a mirage being about the best. I dried up when my life changed at around 20 yrs old and with me exploring my female side once again I'm hoping to find my creativeness once more. I'll have to go on a rummage through the cupboards for some more!! Ah well... you asked for it... are you sure you want more... I wouldn't if I was me

Take care everyone, love and best wishes
Rebecca xxx

Rebecca,
I found a long time ago and am still learning, hiding behind a sofa
isn't good for the soul. CJ, Deborah and Darlene have consistantly
supported me through bad times and now better times. It is so freeing
for me at least to show myself and not having to hide anymore.

As a man I was not able to share my love of art, literature, music, and
culture. I pounded on Grandma's piano when very young. My dad pounded
on me. I got a C in typing, the only C I ever got in any school. I wished
I could draw, write and make music and have had to rely on others for
that need. Since I have gotten better emotionally my typing has improved
by leaps and bounds. I have talked about this with my therapist. The
limits we impose on ourselves are the worst. Most of the girls here
have said similar things.

It's great the poem came out of you! You don't have to have a detailed
explaination. I was only asking because I am quite inquisitive.
I do hope you find that voice in you again!

Thanks again for trusting us to share part of you,
Kersten

Hi Kersten,
thankyou for your reply, your comments are so true. The limits we impose on ourselves are the worst. Yep, I can go along with that. My dad has always sent me mixed signals, on the one hand encouraging my creativity and on the other hand bullying me for being myself. I was born when he was offered his big break into the music biz, he never took it and I believe has never forgiven me for being born. But when all is said and done, I am responsible for my own limits!
I read your passage in the 'does anyone write' thread... WOW! You are an inspiration, I'll post some more of my old songs there (probably won't stop once I get going ) and attempt to dip my toe in the creative waters once more
Love and best wishes
Rebecca xxx