Thanks for this Forum

Lydia · Post by **Lydia** » Mon Sep 13, 2004 11:45 am

There has been an upwelling of so many feelings in me since I joined this forum, that I find I must pour them out. There cannot me a more sympathetic, indeed empathic audience.

I've contributed a bit here, but I have also read a great deal on the CD Forum, and my outlook and understanding of myself has changed - for the better, I should add. Not only am I more comfortable in dressing, but I even feel I should be appropriately dressed when at the computer perusing this Forum. A lot of guilt has dropped out.

It is very curious, as I read your entries, that what I am reading was written by genetic males, yet they sound female. Amazing. I myself, a genetic male, feel quite delightfully female, right now. My SO has often said that it is not that I have this Y-chromosome, but, rather, a defective X-chromosome. Anyway, the feelings are good, and my initial experiments in going "out" evoke a great rush.

I have started looking at other people in stores, theater lobbies, etc., differently. I keep wondering if any of the women are really what they seem to be. Maybe I am looking for a kindred soul? I suspect I'd recognize a CD if I saw one, but maybe not. I know for sure, I'd be read. Some day I may reach the stage when it won't matter, and many of you already have. It helps to be small, skinny and young, none of which am I.

At any rate, it feels wonderful to be among all of you. Thanks for letting me in.

Love to all,

Willy

CJ · Post by CJ » Mon Sep 13, 2004 12:52 pm

Hi all,

Willy:

I felt exactly the same way when I first joined almost a year ago, now. I'd been here and there on the Net, looking for kindred souls. But nothing I found really moved me. Until I stumbled in here by following a link from the CDDF. The girls here (genetic males or not

) were warm, welcoming, sensitive, opinionated yet respectful, funny, intelligent, caring, and soulful. Some still are.

Seriously, though, there's no other way to say it: this place has changed me. The people here are directly responsible for my further "flowering." I've come to accept myself more since getting to know the others here. I've been "empowered," in a way; I've opened myself up even more to friends and colleagues (something I didn't previously think was possible). In my darker moments, I knew that I could come here, seeking solace and that I'd find a sister to hold my heart in her hands for a few life-giving minutes. I come here too with joy.

I'm glad you found this place, Willy. I still remember your first tentative posts. You were shy, nervous. Most of us are, at first. Well, it seems you're gradually opening the doors and letting who you are shine through. It's a good light.

Love,
CJ

Lydia · Post by **Lydia** » Mon Sep 13, 2004 2:08 pm

Hi CJ,

From my first posting, I felt truly welcome and at ease. Years of guilt were swept away. Added to that was my recent revelation to my SO, and her total acceptance of what I had thought was psychological leprosy. I have been so pleased with myself that I went ahead and ordered a few skirts and tops from Anthony Richards catalog. Now isn't that a feminine thing to do ?

One of these days, I'd like to select an avatar for myself for this Forum. I doubt if it will be a photo, unless I blank out my face, and that would be tacky. BTW, I noticed that I have suddenly been promoted here to "Miss Crystal Goddess". Wow ! I guess that comes with posting a few comments. I do read the mail, and if something to which I can contribute comes up, I shall not be shy.

Love,

Willy

Elizabeth · Post by **Elizabeth** » Mon Sep 13, 2004 4:20 pm

Willy,

You experience sounds so much like mine. I came here many times but was too scared to sign up. It would be an admission that I was indeed a crossdresser. But after I started reading, it was not what I thought at all. It really was girls talking about our lives. I could not beleive that there were so many who had the same feelings as me. I thought I was alone on an island before coming here. That was not all the long ago. just a few months.

Hearing other men express feelings of love and compassion for one another just amazed me. To me they were/are girls. It explained me, to myself. I was not insane, I was not a sick pervert, I did not have to feel shamed any longer.

I beleive and will always beleive that this place saved my life. My sisters here are more valuable to me than I have words to express. It was their kindness, compassion, and love that made me beleive I had worth and that I was justified in my existance.

I think I know what you are feeling. I believe we all have felt that. I am so happy for you. The road is not always smooth, but there will always be a sister here for you when the road is rough, at least it has been that way for me.

I am glad you are here.

Love always,
Elizabeth

Beauty · Post by **Beauty** » Mon Sep 13, 2004 7:27 pm

Hi Willy,

I love loving threads like this one. It's what makes this forum a beautiful garden on the web. So many different flowers, but we all make one heavenly garden.

We're glad you joined and it's awesome that you're sharing your life with us!!!

Beauty

SophieLawson · Post by **SophieLawson** » Tue Sep 14, 2004 1:05 am

So glad your happy happy happy Willy

Like Elizabeth and CJ, finding this place has change my life for the better. I found it via an old forum I used to go to once a week or so but that forum turned a bit strange so I was looking for a new place anyways and found the link by mistake

Fate

The things you can achieve with a loving place like this forum is amazing! So glad we all found it

*hugs*

Sophie xx

Loretta Ann · Post by **Loretta Ann** » Tue Sep 14, 2004 1:22 am

Glad to have you join us Willy, and thanks for sharing this with us.

Jassmine(SO) · Post by **Jassmine(SO)** » Tue Sep 14, 2004 11:29 am

Hey Willy

It is indeed a pleasure to have you here

*Hugs & Love*

Virginia · Post by **Virginia** » Wed Sep 15, 2004 7:46 am

Sharon,
You can sleep easy and wake with a smile on your face - you guys created something here that have changed lives and isn't that what we travil this veil of tears to do --- help our "fellow" travelers??? Me, Elizabeth, Gelinda, and others who have had very serious problems with CD'ing have all benefited beyond our wildest expectations - look at Sophie, - came out to her mother, developed a much stronger relationship with her sister, just one recent example of how this forum has benefited a lot of us! - Life changing it is, absolutely life changing and I thank you from the bottom of my heart and I LOVE ALL MY SISTERS HERE!!!!!
Virginia