High School... Were you a loser?

Carol Ann · Post by **Carol Ann** » Sun Feb 08, 2004 8:05 am

Hi Anita,
I can truly relate to your feelings, in school I was teased something alfull

because I had a problem with having very large ears. Man sometimes I would leave school and cry all the way home. One time I told my mother how I wished I was born a girl so I could have long hair to hide my ears under wear pretty dresses a have lots of friends. I think this is the reason I hated high school and have never been back to a reunion

You know to this day I still feel the hurt. Carol Ann

CJ · Post by CJ » Sun Feb 08, 2004 10:36 am

Carol Ann...

{{{hugs}}}

In the end, though, having a pretty soul matters more than having pretty ears.

Love,
CJ

Lorna · Post by **Lorna** » Tue Feb 24, 2004 7:53 pm

I wouldn't say I was a "loser"... I'll say that I was more of a dork! Popular with the girls I was NOT.

My childhood closet CDing notwithstanding, I was like Richie Cunnigham, Brendan Walsh, and Carlton Banks all rolled into one! I was the dorky "squeaky clean" kid in high school. I was like the kid in the Disney Family TV movie when I wanted to be like the kid in the R rated John Hughes movie. I didn't drink, smoke cigarettes, smoke weed or even have sex.

The first three were by choice.

Sadly, the last was by circumstance.

I will admit that college was a completely different ballgame. That's where the bulk of my past debauchery took place!

Beauty · Post by **Beauty** » Wed Feb 25, 2004 5:56 am

Hi there,

Very cool story. It was so fresh that I was wondering how you remembered it all so well. Then I got to the bottom of the post and saw your age.

You're very smart and well versed. The goth crowd is really a cool crowd and most of them are very bright (though not all).

It's great to have you with us!

Beauty

Beauty · Post by **Beauty** » Wed Feb 25, 2004 5:57 am

lornababy wrote:I wouldn't say I was a "loser"... I'll say that I was more of a dork! Popular with the girls I was NOT.

My childhood closet CDing notwithstanding, I was like Richie Cunnigham, Brendan Walsh, and Carlton Banks all rolled into one! I was the dorky "squeaky clean" kid in high school. I was like the kid in the Disney Family TV movie when I wanted to be like the kid in the R rated John Hughes movie. I didn't drink, smoke cigarettes, smoke weed or even have sex.

The first three were by choice. Sadly, the last was by circumstance.

I will admit that college was a completely different ballgame. That's where the bulk of my past debauchery took place!

lol.. good stuff Lorna. I have to admit I was a Disney kind of teenager too. I was a young Ned Flanders. I was popular with the girls, "As JUST a friiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiend"

No drugs, sex or rock n' roll = uncool to most gals. Usually the kind I wanted to date.

Then there was college.

Beauty

Absaroka · Post by **Absaroka** » Thu Jun 02, 2005 9:54 pm

In high school I discovered drinking, girls, and a bad attitude. Among other things I discover that if people tease you and you hit them hard enough most of them will stop. The others of course hit back but that was less common. High school was a lot of fun although I was still shy, self conscious, and truth be told lacked social skills. But it was a breath of fresh air after elementary and junior high during which I felt very alone, alienated, and inferior I dressed more then but the lack of self esteem came from other things like shyness and not being athletic.

I have fond memories of those years along with a lot of pain. But I think everyone has pain in adolescence. I went to a reunion not long ago and enjoyed it a great deal I was very aprehensive about going but after words was very glad I did. What I got was that we were all disturbed kids.

Cross dressing wasn't a big deal to me then. I still did it in secret from time to time but it was obscured by sex and drugs.

Andrea

Kristen · Post by **Kristen** » Fri Jun 03, 2005 1:14 am

I've been here a year and don't remember seeing this thread. My high school years were the greatest, I was in Drama Club, and a Pep Band. constantly in the lime light and loving it. Didn't get any real big parts but always playing a supporting charater role. 33 plays by the time I graduated, it was a real kick. I did enjoy the Pep band more, I was the only Snare drummer, ( like being Center for a hockey, or quarterback for football). I look back at those days with great fondness. I was also in a rock band and played in other towns in the region, lot of Jimi, Cream and Steppenwolf. Don't know if I was in or not, too busy playing and practicing. Looking back it was good times for me. 'Crossdressed all the way thru high school. Kristen

Merinda · Post by **Merinda** » Fri Jun 03, 2005 4:31 am

I dont remember seeing this thread either but the last post was Feb 2004 which was a few months before I joined.

I suppose you could sum me up in two words " Peter Brady " , I also experieced everyone aborting my birthday party and needed to find myself a new personality as well.

The only difference is that I'm an only child.

Eien · Post by **Eien** » Fri Jun 03, 2005 3:34 pm

Eh, I was the tall, thin, spotty little swot that the teachers liked. Completely non-athletic, had no intest in football (soccer for you Americans) or whatever the current fad in collectibles happenned to be, so pretty friendless. The only reason I didn't get bulled so much was that there were two others more pitiful than me, and I kept my mouth shut and stuck to studying so didn't draw thier attention.

It wasn't great, and the idea of changing how I behaved to make me fit in better just didn't occur to me. It was an unnatural concept. Still, I was usually top of the class a lot, so at least I was smart!

Chrissie · Post by **Chrissie** » Tue Sep 26, 2006 9:22 pm

I moved to a small town from Boston where I was in a Boy's school just as I entered HS, and I felt like a freak just because everyone was surfing except me. I read a lot and was kind of intellectual. But I LOVED the girls!

I had a camera, and was the yearbook photographer, and at some point I found out that the girls liked me because I was quiet, and sensitive, and interesting and not like all the other guys. So I made friends with lots of the girls, and was very happy.

I wasn't really dressing then, I just knew that I really liked to be with girls as friends, just loved to be around them, and before I graduated, I was hanging around and helping them dress and do their hair while we talked. It all just kinda happened. Since I liked sports, too, nobody gave me trouble, hehe.

One day, the summer after graduation, my gf left her bikini in my car and I found myself putting it on. I remember it SO clearly! I felt as if my breasts swelled to fill the cups, and my lips became red and soft. The feeling has always stayed with me, and after that I felt so much closer to my gf's!

Well, there's so much more....college and all, but that's enough for now.

xoxo
Chrissie

Alana · Post by **Alana** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 1:54 am

Hi all,

I wouldn't say that I was a loser or an outcast in high school. Definitely was a bit of a loner, and marched to a different drummer, though not too off center. I was considered one of the brains. Was not one of what I considered the populars, though kind of on the edge.

My high school years were somewhat conflicting. I presume I had many of the thoughts and ideas of any male teenager. I was attracted to the girls and had crushes on many of the prettier, more popular ones. While I could talk with them and work with them in clubs and the such, I was totally out of my league in a one to one dating situation. I was so afraid that I would say or do something stupid that I seldom let myself be in such a position. Had all of two dates in high school.

I also was envious of girls. They had so many options in dress, hair, etc. that I, as a male didn't have. I have often wondered what the girls that I was most friends with would have thought, if they knew I liked to dress up and often wondered how their outfits might look on me.

Loser, not! Conflicted loner, accepted as a brain and personable, yes!

Have yet to go to a reunion, but am considering going to my 4Oth in a couple of years. Would like to see some of my classmates again just to see how they have gone through the ages. However, about half of my class were military brats; they scattered after graduation due to parent transfers. Hopefully, many of them are of the same mind as me.

Love,

Alana