femmed and punished

[CherryLynn]

I often wonder how much of an influence my Cahtolic School experiences had on my life? Would I come love women's clothing and makeup if I had gone to Public School. My memories of being femmed and punished by Sister Christina Marie are still very strong. I do love being being controlled by strong dom women, have always been submissive and obedient.
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Cheryl

[Erin L]

I still remember my sixth grade nun threatening us boys that if we misbehaved, she would make us wear a girl's uniform for a day. I got in gobs of trouble that year, but she never carried out her threat.

Curses! Foiled again!

[Marjory]

I often wondered what the girls thought. Dressing a boy as a girl made the girls feel good??

[Erin L]

Interesting thought, Marjory, although I seem to recall mostly titters from the girls when the nun made the threat to our class.

[CherryLynn]

yes i remember the girls laughing when my class when sister Christina put a Bow in my hair and called me a" Gossip Girl".

[CherryLynn]

This a cute story.
I went to my local pub Halloween - all the Waitesses were wearing really cute costumes- Tinker Belle, Kitty Cat etc. The male bartender showed wearing a red sequin dress, nylon, wig and all made up- the girls all laughed, giggled. It seemed that they really enjoyed seeing a guy all dolled up.

[Robyn Katie]

Hi there CherryLynn,

Not having been raised Catholic, I think there are lots of routes to becoming a CDer. Most everyone has a formative experience or group of experiences that started it all -- mine being (consensually and nicely) dressed up in her mother's old clothes by my aunt who was only a year older than me & thus a playmate. So I'd say the nuns' forced feminization was only one of many possible sources.

On the other hand the other aspect, the desire to be dominated by a woman, may indeed be more traceable to your kind of experience. In the "petticoating" literature (google it) there's a specific, darkish theme of older women punishing young boys by dressing them as girls. Their attitude tends to be controlling and vindictive, and Obedience is the key.

That, I think, could well come from parochial school. Seemingly it can also stem from English raising and schooling, as a big proportion of petticoating fans seem to be British. Maybe it's all those governesses?

Interesting topic. It's fun to try to trace the roots of a desire I share ... but it's just as intriguing to think about a desire I don't share, and wonder why I don't, and what different themes in my childhood might have made me want that under other circumstances.

Love, Robyn Katie

[DonnaT]

The being submissive may have been influenced by the nuns, but I believe that one is destined to CDing or not.

That is, if one is predisposed to be a CDer, there is usually some trigger that gets the ball rolling. And until that trigger is pulled, one is usually unaware of having a CDing tendency.

Some of us are drawn to the mystery of fem clothing, and have an urge to try it, and once we've tried it, the trigger is pulled.

Some have been dressed by others, but if they didn't have the tendency to be a CDer, they'd probably stop.

And if one is predisposed, then it doesn't matter how old they are when the trigger is pulled. I knew of someone that didn't even start until they were in their seventies.

[CherryLynn]

Even as a young boy I loved to play with my sister's Barbie dolls, dressing them up was such fun. So I really think that I would have ended loving women's clothing and makeup anyway. Still often wonder why I have these feminine desires. I don't consider myself a woman trapped in a man's body but getting dolled up it exciting for me. I wonder where i fit in?
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Cherry

[Carolynn]

"Being a girl is wonderful and to torture someone into that would be like the exact opposite of what it's like. I don’t know how anyone could act that way." - poetheather

[Marjory]

I would have loved to have someone force me to dress. I think that's just a CD fantasy though.

[Carolynn]

The idea and the pleasure from the fantasy and sometimes the reality of forced femme seems to be a matter of guilt reduction. If it is not "your fault" then you don't have to feel totally responsible for doing something you have been convinced by the majority of mundane society as being "wrong".

Since it becomes tied to the sex drive, it becomes a fetish, where you can derive pleasure from just the fantasy, and it can help one in masturbation fantasies too. If you can find someone of like mind, it can become a limited reality.

Whether or not your attraction to the idea came from being punished by a Nun or not, it is obviously a part of you now. You can take some solace, if you want, in the knowledge that as you grow older, your sex drive will diminish with your decreasing testosterone and it should not be some kind of continuing obsessive fantasy for you by the time you are 55-60. You might even find yourself continuing crossdressing without the fetish aspects and simply taking pleasure in that at some point. As usual, YMMV.

[DeeDee]

As another victim, errrr graduate, of Catholic schools...I have to say they offered an excellent education compared to the public school system where I grew up. No "petticoat punishment" of any sort, but I sure do remember getting my knuckles smacked with the nun's ruler. It seems the nuns favored the girls as they rarely got smacked. And heck, my first femme desires and dressing started before I was sentenced to Catholic school, so I can't blame them (or thank them)....guess I was self-taught
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DeeDee

[DonnaT]

I never got punished in Catholic School.

I liked that when I finished my Jr. year, I only needed one credit to graduate. So I switched to public school, took a required English course for that credit, and filled out the rest of my schedule with electives.

[CherryLynn]

DeeDee
Yes I had my knuckles more than once by SisterChristanna marie and the girls did get off easier.