After it was done, a few days later, it dawned on me that this act of love and kindness, totally unsolicited, was a complete affirmation of who and what I am, and her complete acceptance of my dressing. Several times I thanked her for what she had done and also checked to see if she was still OK with doing that for me. Sometimes we, as people, will do something but do it grudging, even as we say, “No, it’s no big deal. Stop. I’m alright doing your make-up”. Never was there a hint of ill feelings about what she did. She also said she would do it anytime I wanted her to do it. Even jewelry, and 2 long green, very feminine, feather earrings. Absolutely beautiful.
Then yesterday, I went to breakfast and stopped in to see a friend who use to work with me, who owns a consignment shop. Small but very cute shop. We talked, and then I told him I was looking for tops, size 22-24 or 2X or 3X. He showed me what he had and I found 2 really cute tops; one for three dollars and one for four. Mama Bear was laughing and told me what a girl I had become in just 6 months. Even told me that wearing black or colored socks was “a girlie thing”, and as I looked down, I realized I had on black socks with white high tops, black girl 5 pocket stretch jeans, cute panties, (ALWAYS cute panties...What if I get in an accident and have to go to the hospital...TeeHee. I joke, but that would be a major scandal here in the buckle of the bible belt. Western Arkansas...Yeah!!!) Had on a girl belt and tee and a guy flannel. Maybe I am more girl than I realize. Hmmmm...???
I’ve also taken to noticing when she says something really complimentary, (at least what I feel is complimentary...)She told me that a black V-neck 3/4 sleeve sweater I was wearing made me look very pretty and feminine, and that so many of my mannerisms that I just do without thinking also are very feminine. The way I hold my hands, the way I walk, the way I stand and sit and how I carry myself. I was very flattered that she said these things to me and it made me happy that we have come so far in 6 short months of her learning of my dressing.
She always flatters my girl side as well as my guy side and both sides of my personality are happy. She realizes I have been this way since I was very young and loves the girl as much as the guy that I am. We talk a lot about dressing issues, but we also talk a lot about just girlie stuff. We love to shop and just do little girlie things together. Mani’s and pedi’s are in the future. Sorry this was some what long but sometimes it has to be to really tell what is happening. For those of us who’s SO may still not know, Please, never give up your hope and dream of living, at least in the privacy of your own home, as the girl you are. Please always be careful to not get caught. It could be the worst thing to happen, and then again, it might be the best. It was for me but I know it’s not the norm most of the time, and may your SO be as understanding as MB is. She’s awesome and I am so glad to have her. I never dreamed it could be so wonderful. TTFN...Soooo glad to be back among you all. Hugs.
, and give this one 
Karin 
