I was about 6 yrs of age and used to hang around the house alot always ill and off school one morning I saw my mum getting dressed nothing unusual there I hear u say until I noticed she was wearing a tight girdle and very tight jeans with her pantyhose. I thought at the time that I would love to be able to dress that way I knew hwe jeans would not fit me but the hose even as they were larger than would fit would be my first attempt at wearing her clothes.
One day I had my gran babysitting when mum went out to work. My mother said I was allowed to play in my room typical spoilt child with a computer and t.v etc in his room but I took the opportunity to sneak into my mothers room and try on her hose. MAN THEY FELT SO GOOD..... So i tried a pair of her slippers too, not a wise choice as I look back now but I was not a co-ordinated as I am now
.Anyway, I done this a few times until my gran walked in and caught me and asked me what I was doing, she assumed I was playing dress up so took no notice as grandparents dont I was so afraid she would tell my parents and spent the rest of the day petrified for the moment when my mother and father who was also working would walk in.
SHE NEVER TOLD BUT.....
I had left it some years until I had grown to about my mothers size not a very big woman but by the time I was 13 I was her size my mother said it would be o.k for me to stay in the house while she nipped out for half an hour as I was very responsible apparently. I got her Jeans, hose, high heel shoes, and a nice tight top and put them on, for the first time in years I had felt like I had found something that was really a part of me and I revelled in every second of it. My mother returned home as I am dressed full regalia even in her clip on ear rings I panicked. I heard my mother coming up the stairs and I froze I could not get udressed part of me did not want to. I ran into her bathroom and turned the shower on she asked if I was o.k and I replied I am just taking a shower mum be down in a bit. I showered had to get my hair wet anyway make it look believeable. BUT LEFT THE CLOTHES ON THE BATHROOM FLOOR.....
My mother never said a word but has always had her suspisions. I train alot at the local gym and a few years ago she asked if I would like to borrow her skin tight lycra leggings to wear down with a nice top she had. I never knew what to say just felt really ashamed and dirty than she had secretly known or at least suspected I told her not to be so daft and why would I want to do something like that she just smiled and said well you know where my clothes are if you need them.
I wondered if I was gay/bi/straight..?? I figured as I was not attracted to men I had to be straight and looked into CD for the first time and found I was not the only one who enjoyed it and it was perfectly normal for men to do this. This went one stage further I also found when I was dressed that I also fantasised what it would be like to make love as a woman this scared me I had always been attracted to women but had not had alot of experience as I was always the skinny guy who talked too much and women did not find that attractive. So have reconciled myself to the fact that although I dress this way I am hetro but appreciate the male form of at least partly bi if that makes sense in the fact I love looking but I dont touch..
I met my SO in may 2002 this subject came up when she asked if I had any fantasies I would like to try so naturally I mentioned CD she was a little taken aback but then said o.k. my first time with her was when I had taken a day out with my brother to the local amusement park and got soaking wet on a water ride and came to her house straight afterwards I rang her on the way she said dont worry about it we will get you dry when you arrive. She had waiting for me a towel to dry off NOT UNUSUAL but then she went and got a pair of VERY TIGHT skin tight lycra leggings almost the same as the ones my mother had mentioned and a nice little purple crop top with gold glitter on I borrowed a pair of her underwear and she said you can babe not a problem but make sure you wash them before you give them back. :o . That was the start of it with my SO now if I ma having a bad day or I am stressed or just want to chill out she always says to me go and get changed babe and gives me suggestions as to what she would like to see me in.
My SO is the love of my life and I would not be without her she has gave me the strength to carry on and accept who I am and what I do and actually enjoy it on a day to day basis if I choose to or not I know she is always there for me and will always support me no matter what I or she go through.....
Anway girls sorry to droan on but kinda sounds a tad boring compared to yours but thought I would share.
P.S another reason why I started CD I was bullied alot at school and when I dressed that way it kinda gave me an escape from who I was even for a short period of time.
As my SO would say
Be good and if you cant be good be safe and enjoy it
BYE
Claire
xx
That was sooo cool!
