how I got started

Carmen Roma · Post by **Carmen Roma** » Wed Dec 16, 2009 10:05 am

I don't know how many of you are going to read this since is an old topic. but if tucking rollup sucks under my shirt to give the apperance of boobs while in bed at night counts as crossdressing then I started maybe when I was 5. I being crossdressing on and off ever since, I stop many times because I felt guilty, weak even silly. but every time I cdress it gave pleasure but as I got older that became secondary now it gives me peace of mind it helps me to relax and forget about my troubles. I wish there was another way for me but anyways I like who I am. I don't know what the future will bring for me since I tried to keep this a well kept secret but I'm always afraid that somebody will find out; many of you i'm sure went or are going thru the same thing but sometimes it feels like i'm the only one.

Lydia · Post by **Lydia** » Wed Dec 16, 2009 10:41 am

Hi Carmen,

You are NOT alone. We all have similar stories beginning at clearly prepuberal ages - 5 also in my case. My mother used to beat me unmercifully if she caught me - at least until I grew too big to beat on.

I was married (happily, I must say) for almost 50 years to a wife who barely tolerated my crossdressing. So I was virtually in the closet - feeling guilty and shamed.

My wife passed away 13 years ago, and I am fortunate in having an SO who is fully understanding and cooperative.

It is unquestionably a great comfort to wear whatever I feel like, as I am sure you agree. Even greater comfort to communicate with other sympathetic souls on this friendly forum.

Whatever you do, abandon all feelings of guilt and consider yourself as having a wonderful gift.

Hugs,

Lydia

CharLee · Post by **CharLee** » Wed Dec 16, 2009 10:58 am

My dear Carmen,

All of us at one time or another did similar things and went through the feelings of being ashamed or guilty, so in that respect you are not alone.

The fact that you don't metion how old you are or if you live at home raises the question of who would find out.

All I can tell you is that those of us who have accepted this part of our being cherish the time we get to be en femme and how it makes us feel. So for what it's worth, just enjoy yourself and as Lydia said put aside of feelings of guilt and shame.

Come join us in the chat room if you have and questions or things you want to talk about, we're here to help

Carol Ann · Post by **Carol Ann** » Wed Dec 16, 2009 11:38 am

Carmen fear not as we are all here for one another from beginners to old ladies like me who have dress for, no better not go there will give my age away. Remember one for all and all for one

Carmen Roma · Post by **Carmen Roma** » Tue Dec 22, 2009 3:57 pm

Thank you all for such kind words, I feel very happy to have find you all.
may be one day I will have the courage to meet some of you in person, I am unfortunally very shy maybe that is why i feel so much comfortable as carmen.

Absaroka · Post by **Absaroka** » Wed Dec 23, 2009 8:16 am

Carmen you aren't the only one. No one really knows but the people who study these things say that roughly 1% of men like to do this-that's at least a million men in the USA alone.

Probably more. And we don't hurt anyone, except perhaps when we lie.

Zari

Lana · Post by **Lana** » Wed Dec 23, 2009 8:44 am

If the truth were really known from all those too macho to admit it, I wauld say that roughly 99% of all men have at 1 time or another have worn a bra and panties for what ever reason. That is just my opinion.
Lana

Sylvia H · Post by **Sylvia H** » Thu Dec 24, 2009 5:42 am

Alone? Never.

xox
Sylvia H