Hi my name is Leila an a African American cder form a small town in Ky.
it started out of curiousity when I was in my early teens when I tried on my mom's clothes and that when I first start to get sexually aroused.
later on in my teen years it progress to wearing bra ,panties shoes etc.It continue in my 20's and there times I felt gulit and shame about my cding
wandering if I was sick or crazy and that when I started to purge thinking that I could stop,which I did try several times,then soon the urge came back stronger. For the past few years I been finding more about me being a cder and what it meant.so now I'm in my 30's I beginnig to learn how understand myself and accept myself and so far it hasn't been easy.
My short story
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Leila
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to the forum and thanks for sharing your beginnings story!
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Erica Shade
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Leila,
Welcome home. I know you must be going through a tough time trying to find out who you are, but keep up the courage. Remember that it is important to be true to yourself. This board is an excellent place to find answers and see that you are not alone in this.
Nuff Luv,
Erica Shade
Welcome home. I know you must be going through a tough time trying to find out who you are, but keep up the courage. Remember that it is important to be true to yourself. This board is an excellent place to find answers and see that you are not alone in this.
Nuff Luv,
Erica Shade
It's always better in the Shade!!
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Caroline
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Hello Leila,
Welcome, and please accept my apologies for not replying to you sooner.
I think we've all felt the guilt and shame you have gone through, but it really does help us come to terms with ourselves when we find out that there are others who have gone through it too. That's why a forum like this is so valuable. I only wish it had been around for me some 40 years ago (OK girls, I mean 50+ years ago).
I'm glad that you're beginning to understand yourself, and accept yourself, but I hope that you're also learning to like yourself too!
Whenever you need any help, we'll be here for you, Leila.
Kind regards, and take care,
Caroline.
Welcome, and please accept my apologies for not replying to you sooner.
I think we've all felt the guilt and shame you have gone through, but it really does help us come to terms with ourselves when we find out that there are others who have gone through it too. That's why a forum like this is so valuable. I only wish it had been around for me some 40 years ago (OK girls, I mean 50+ years ago).
I'm glad that you're beginning to understand yourself, and accept yourself, but I hope that you're also learning to like yourself too!
Whenever you need any help, we'll be here for you, Leila.
Kind regards, and take care,
Caroline.
"There is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so." Shakespeare.
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Cherri
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Welcome Lelia
It sounds like you were reading my mind when you wrote your story.I to am coming to grips with cding. Welcome you are amonr friends Hugs Cherri
