My life so far

[Danielle]

My earliest memory of wanting to dress was probably around 4 years, when I asked my mother if I would be able to have a dress. She did not say no but said "maybe when you are older". I remember this incident because I was so profoundly sad. I don’t know why I would want a dress because I was the oldest and at the time my sister was 1. I do know that many of my mother’s friends had daughters my age whom I played with. My guess it was their influence. My desire to wear feminine clothing has never diminished throughout my life.
My mother was very small, 5 ft and a size 5 shoe. I don’t remember at what age I started to fit her clothes but for a short time there I was able to find a bit of private time to try on her things. What fun! Never got caught as far as I know.
After I grew out of her things I could not do much until I left home and was on my own. I bought a few things from a thrift store and wore them around my room.
My first girl friend (I was about 17) startled me one day when we were walking home from a movie. I was complaining about my feet and she said “You should try my shoes if you think yours are bad”. I had never hinted about my cross-dressing. I took a chance and said “really?” We sat down at the next stop and found out our feet were close enough to the same size so we exchanged shoes and I walked the rest of the way home in hers. What a high! I found out a bit later she liked to see boys in dresses so it had nothing to do with me. We exchanged outfits once to go to a Halloween party but eventually we parted.
I began to think my desires were a bit perverted and tried to suppress them so did not do much until after I was married. I imagined marriage would blow the nonsense out of my head but it did not. I did however keep it a secret for some years until again I had the opportunity at a Halloween party. I convinced my wife we could go as twins so we dressed exactly alike (as girls of course). I think she caught on to my excitement so it came out I liked to dress that way. She was not impressed by did allow me an occasional turn around the house. She said she would leave me if anyone found out. After we had kids I was told to NEVER dress or let on to any of the kids.
So for 30 years I kept things suppressed however after the kids all left home I started dressing a bit in secret when my wife was away. As expected, eventually I left something out by accident, was caught and had to explain. So we had some very tough times but we are really in love so we agreed to disagree.
She is still against dressing but has softened somewhat to the point where she says it’s OK in private when she is away. I still have hope for the future….

[KimberlyS]

Danielle thanks for sharing a bit about yourself.

... She is still against dressing but has softened somewhat to the point where she says it’s OK in private when she is away. I still have hope for the future….

Yes this is a start as your wife has accepted that you do this and is allowing it to happen when she does not have to deal with it. It is more than many CDers get and less that other CDers get. It may change in the future or it may always stay this way. Enjoy what you have instead of regretting what you do not have. For many CDers that amount of time is all they need.

When my wife and I started to work through the CDing issues my wife asked me what I wanted. As a minimum I asked for her to accept I was a CD and I could CD and would not do it around her or the kids. I am lucky that my wife has tolerated more over time.

Thanks again for sharing.

KimberlyS-CD
joe in a skirt

[Danielle]

I thought I would add a little after reading my post again.... I should add that my wife does not seem to mind at all that I routinely wear 'unisex' clothing selected from the women's section. At work I wear women's jeans and polo shirts plus due to my very narrow foot I have for many years bought ladies sizes in shoes, still androgenous styles though. I have worn panties all my life and she does not seem to mind that either. What I meant to say was that she does not want to see me in anything that is obviously feminine looking or might not look like something that men would wear.

[Ann Stef]

It is nice to get partial acceptance, embarrasement in public is still an issue with many wives