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I was born into a late in life situation. My parents were older, and I had two much older sisters(9 and 13years). Dad was never around due to his work. When I was 4, I was out playing and wet my pants. This was not the first time, but this time there was a new punishment. I was stripped down and put into a pair of my sisters panties and redressed. I was spanked and my sisters taunted me that I was just a little sissy. I was not allowed out of anyones sight and remained dressed in panties the rest of the day. This action, or the threat of being dressed like a girl was a major thing as I grew up. After My sisters left home I moved down stairs to the basement and my room was next to the laundry room. Seeing my Mums lingerie on the line drying was like iron filings being drawn to a magnet. I just had to try them on. With my Mum being alone alot, she joined various clubs, and I was left alone. I soon found the treasure chest full of wonderful pleasures. I was totally ignorant of the sex thing, clueless. It was a night alone like many others, that I came for the first time. I was in front of the mirror dressed up dancing and swaying back and forth when it happened. I was terrified, I didn't know what had happened. A couple of weeks later I found out, by this time it had happened again. This all got to be rather enjoyable, and the great rollercoaster ride had begun. Over the last 40+ years I have come enjoy the finer side of dressing up, but it is still mainly a private thing that I share some of with my spouse.

I find it interesting that so many of first wore girls clothes as a punishment. Now that has a lot to do with sissy being a terrible insult to a boy. But what I'm thinking of is something I learned as a psych major decades ago, which is that punishment, rather than discouraging behavior, sometimes fixates it. The mechanism isn't completely understood, but for all the rats who don't touch the lever because they get a shock, a few will develope a compulsion to touch the lever. It has a lot to do with the predictability of the punishment. A rat that sometimes gets food from touching the lever and sometimes gets a shock is most likely to develop the compulsion. The rat that only gets shocked most likely will not. And the rat that only gets food will only press the lever when hungry.

Or something like that. It was a long time ago. The main lesson from it was that punishment, in order to work, must be predictable. Random unpredictable punishment makes for some strange behavior.


Zari

When I was real little 4-6 years of age, I worn girls PJ's to bed, handed down from middle sister. Not because of punishment but because my family cut corners when ever it could. Neither my father or mother were High School Grads, so neither did not make a lot of money. Growing up with two older sisters, most of the money went toward them.