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I was 14 when I used to skip school just to stay at home and wear my Aunt's clothes. I grew up in a house with my Mom, Aunt, Cousin, younger sister and brother. Matter of fact, I had my first orgasm doing the act. Then my mom caught me one day and degraded my ego with the "sissy" calling. This was 1964. It was hard back then to educate oneself or to find support, so I hid my inner girl through two marriages,

So just 5 months ago, I separated from my second wife and divorce will be in a few months, my choice. The first 60 years of my life has been spent on every one else's pleasure's, always denying my own. Everytime I brought up my inner girl, it was always a sore subject, unaccepted.

When I moved into my apartment, the first thing I did was buy clothes, shoes, jewelry, cosmetics, toiletries. and anything else for Diane. Also all the hypnosis tapes from Hypnotist Dawn. I started meeting women on a singles net site and was up front about my cross dressing. I could not believe how many women accepted this. I now have about 8 female friends that help me shop or have lunch with me (as Dan) and then come over or I go to their place and I can be Diane (I don't go out yet).

I have never been happier, and I am glad I found this site.

Diane

Welcome Diane. I too hid or at least went back into the closet with my crossdressing through two of my previous marriages. My third wife met me while I was out as Kandis and of course my current (AND FINAL) wife has known about Kandis since we met almost 15 years ago.

Hi Diane,

As I said in my "welcome" post, we do have a group of ladies who have a "social support group" that extends from east Tennessee to West (by gawd) Virginia and east to, well we have had girls from NoVa attend. Michelle is from the Bristol area as is Angela (she does not post much, but what a wonderful girl she is too!)

Just to give you some history, know where Steele Creek Park is in Bristol? Well, I was a life guard there and practically built the place - boy the stories I can tell, a 5 ton flatbed and a "duce and a half" racing around the park at 3:00am neither having mufflers! and the cops showing up and the pack of wild dogs and the seven drunk national guard guys and the police chief's daughter and well it was a great time!

Look forward to your sharing with us!

Love,

Virginia

Hi Diane—
Your post title is very apt. In many ways, it works better "later." What makes me happy now would not have fit my younger self very well. I had to let go of a lot of expectations in order to let this side of myself “go forth and BE,” to quote our local sage, Virginia.

What kind of expectations? Well, the “rewards” I was supposed to get if I played the competition game, which for men is very well mapped out. I finally just got tired of putting out all that energy.

I also saw that relationships could only do so much, no matter how good or successful they were. That was a real eye-opener for me. I didn’t get into another relationship for 11 years after that. During that time, I found out that “Anita” was inside, and I had to work on that my relationship with her before I could reach out again.

I’m glad to hear about your success with this new life.

Hi Diane
Your trials sound alot like my own. I have been married 43 yrs. and finally let my wife in on it last Halloween ( very common I think ) and she is not thrilled and very narrow about it. I explained "it" has always been there - but non acceptance prevails and communication about "it" is not pleasent so avoided for now.

My marrage and "guy side" are as important to me as my "femm" side and juggleing them seems to be the only answer for now

I started dressing and got out very quickly. It was so easy and felt so right and was such a stress reliever. Getting out dressed was the best thing for me, the juggleing and being cagey about it is something I don't like.

This Forum is a real blessing. Get Out and experience the day

Hugg's Debbie

Virginia- Yes honey, I know that park all to well. You are the better woman now, it appears. Love to you.

Debbie- I feel for you. I look back now and wish I had made my decision sooner. But I still feel no regrets, because as a female, we move forward with our lives and learn from the past, not relive it. It's especially hard if there are children involved. I'm confident you are making the right decisions in your life for now.

Thanks to all the beautiful women who responded to me. I am trilled to be here and it is comforting to know that there are so many friends that I feel I can identify with. My life has been so much more passionate and fulfilling as a cross dresser and my new friendships with the women I have met have been a blessing like nothing I have experience in my life.

Love to you all

Diane