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As a young boy coming home from school in the 7th grade, I was a latch key child. I would have the house to myself from about 2:30 PM to 5:00 PM.
My mother and father worked, my aunt as well and my brother attended college. I had been interested in womens' undergarments for as long as I could remember. I was a good athlete and interested in cars, sports, etc., I had a fetish about lingerie even at a young age. So I began to put on my aunt's panties and slips every afternoon and would find it as quite stimulating. On occasion, I would also dress up in my mother's clothes.

This essentially went on until I left for college. They must have known for obvious reasons but absolutely nothing was said.

Over the next 40 years I have struggled with this desire to underdress in
lingerie but I will save that for more appropriate sections.

It is so great to be able to write this and be heard by people who will understand. Thanks

That's one of the reasons we are here, to share, to say what you've not been able to until now.

Hi Jeanne B--
I had a very similar experience. My mother and father both worked, so I had the house to myself after school. My sisters had stored clothes at the house that they were never going to wear again, so there was no real worry about folding everything "just so" and putting it back in the drawer.

I also liked sports and cars, and was fairly popular. I tried not to let it bother me that I had this particular secret--I was pretty sure my friends all had their own secrets when it came to sexuality, and that's what this was about when I was in 7th grade.

You said this went on until you left for college. I quit in college, and never really dealt with this subject again until I was 49.

Hi Anita,

I have maintained my fascination (it could be an obsession) with lingerie over the years, but only in the last few years have I begun to to wear panties on occasion. I have been very happily married for 44 years and only told my wife of my interest 4 years ago. She has basically told me to do what I want as long as she is not involved. Our excellent relationship in all aspects continues. I don't know what would happen if I was more open about wearing lingerie. I think I am either too afraid or embarrassed to find out

Hi Jeanne B,

I understand about enjoying lingerie, I too like to wear it and wish I could all the time. My wife does not understand and wont talk about it. I had the fascination with women's clothing since 12-14 year old. I got away from it until my early 20's and got quite the collection with the approval of my then wife. I purged and was away from it for about 12 years when the urge came back and well got so strong I now cross dress all the way when I can. Right now I am in my new pink dress, it has a short skirt and long sleeves and it is soft to the touch and feels great on. I also have on some makeup, wig and my forms with a bra and panties. I feel good when I can dress like I want to. I just wish I could do this more than I do. I would feel so much better about me. Enough about me. Nice to meet you and I look forward to hearing more about you and your adventure. We are all sisters here so you can confide in us.

Welcome again

Hugs,

Erica

Never thought about that but now I wish both my parents would have worked! Lol. I had to wait till they went out to dinner and we had a sitter who was oblivious to what I was doing in my mothers big walk in closet!!

I can remember it like it was yesterday, when I was 11 or 12 I used to spend a few weeks of my summer vacation with my aunt and uncle. She worked in the hospital billing department and my uncle was handicapped and home most of the time. But he would nap in the afternoons, so I took that time to explore my aunt's pretty things. It took me a few times running my hands through her undies, to have ideas about what I would feel like in them. I began with her stockings, with the seams up the back, her smooth silk panties, her garter belt, the bra and slip! I tried her shoes to but didn't prance around too much to keep from waking my uncle. It was as special a time as it feels to this day, an undescribable feeling of pure satisfaction and what feels right.

What a rush it is!

I use to wear my mothers dress in her absence, when i was12 yr old.Now i am wearing my wife's cloth in her absence and i will continue to do it.

It is interesting how this fetish works. I can be away from the desire to put on panties and slips for quite awhile and then it comes roaring back. I told my wife about it a couple of years ago and at first she was accepting as long as she didn't participate. Over time she has shut it out of her mind and I don't mention it. It was really my fault as I began to push it by having on a pair of panties as we were about to start foreplay. She freaked. Not that she was angry, but simply doesn't want to know about it. The problem is that it is very limiting since I can't underdress as much as I would like. Well enough whining for now.

Kary wrote:I use to wear my mothers dress in her absence, when i was12 yr old.Now i am wearing my wife's cloth in her absence and i will continue to do it.

Yeah.. Fun when your a kid but ya really should think about getting your own clothes.. When your wife finds out its so much worse if your wearing hers, imho..

Jeanne B wrote:It is interesting how this fetish works. I can be away from the desire to put on panties and slips for quite awhile and then it comes roaring back. I told my wife about it a couple of years ago and at first she was accepting as long as she didn't participate. Over time she has shut it out of her mind and I don't mention it. It was really my fault as I began to push it by having on a pair of panties as we were about to start foreplay. She freaked. Not that she was angry, but simply doesn't want to know about it. The problem is that it is very limiting since I can't underdress as much as I would like. Well enough whining for now.

Fetish? What fetish? Lol. My wife did the same thing. As long as its out of her face... And I never pushed it..

I find it intriguing how the desire comes and goes. I sometimes wonder if it has to do with where I am in other areas of my life.

Zari

Thanks, Zari. I seem to be out of the mood for dressing these days. Probably stress, heat and long work hours.

I have shut down. There have been long periods when I had no desire. Then it was due to denial and, now, maybe just too tired.

Andrea