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As i said in my intro, the first item i tryed on was a pair of my mothers panty hose, i snuck a pair out of her drawer, i use to ware them under my pants with socks over the toes, i think my mom found my hideing place for them, because one day she just lifted up my shirt quickly, and looked under the back of my pants, OMG !!!!! that was my very first fear of being caught!! Hmmm maybe even the start of my insecurities of being found out, i must of been about 7 or so. I remember always emulating woman, cliped out pics of adds from moms old true stories magazine, admireing there form and gracefullness, feeling it inside all the while. Stuffed bras when i moved out, it wasnt untill i met Charlie that i wore my first clothing, i tryed it once, bought a set of clothing buying for the girlfriend, LoL and threw it out after it turned sexual. now i dont get excited dressed, just the feeling and energy of being femm. It has only been a month wareing these nice outfits, and the breastforms, It still overwelms me.

I have accepted this all in me, will NEVER throw away those forms <giggles> i dont want to fight it any more, it seems like there is no sence in loseing the energy. There are a few battels i go threw now still, mostly to do with how the SO is handeling it, and guilt of putting her threw stuff. I thank god every day for her comeing into my life, she is the best at walking the walk without talking the talk. Not to mention how she is helping me blossom!! thx hon xoxoxo

I hope that helps u all get to know me a lil bit better i am so glad we found this site, i have found some very nice sites and lots of info already, and i know Charlie is glad too, we both are learning so much, thank you all <hugs> and am looking forward to to chating and getting to know some new friends.

Bye for now *Elandra*

Thanks Elandra,

Funny how so many of our beginnings are so similar. Let's us kow just how un unique we are in this area. Also makes me wonder how many men are out there being totally secret about it with also the same experience. A mind boggling thought.

I also like reading here the stuff that does make us unique-who we are regardless of gender

You are lucky to have a SO who is willing to go with you to wherever you meed to go psychically. And it good to read that you have an appreciation for what this entails for her.

Keep posting

Andrea

Hi Elandra,

Thanks for your Beginnings story.

In between raiding my mothers underwear draw, I used to like looking at pictures of women in lingerie, but in my mothers shopping cataloge. I used to spend hours pouring over the women who were wearing panties and bras, wishing that I could wear such lovely items.
My mother caught me looking in the womens section a few times, however whatever she may have thought of this, she never made a fuss.

Charlotte xx

Elandra,

It is great that you and your SO can share this experience at you take your "Magical Mystery Tour." We can only hope that you both will stay and contribute to the forum. Anytime we have couples that share and grow in this and share with us it only helps to make all of us stronger and it helps the new sisters who are struggleing to understand. That is what I feel we are all about anyway. Lending a helping hand to those who find us and seek help and understanding. I speak from personal experience as my sisters here have done only what I have come to describe as miracles for this girl!
Virginia

It is funny how we share some of the same exp threw this life as a CD! i cant believe how meny things i have read hear that i have done myself or fantisized about doing or trying, it helps me know even more in my heart that we are born with this in our geans, or our spiritual essance, a true gift.

I believe in the yin and yang <male and female energys>, That it takes two forms, interacting with each other to create life or universes, balanceing the male and female energys in our selfs conects us to the universe, to all things, CDing helps me to feel the other side of my being at a hightened state, and i find im loveing the male side of me and my mates form more the more intence i feel the femm.

We Cd's have been playing with this reality since we were very young, and know well the rules humanity has put on men for being ballanced, I wonder just how meny CD's have been bullied somewhat in school for being a balanced person? I know i have been. CDing teaches me that we all can be different and feel no shame. its only judgement that gets in the way of men being ballanced, and coneced to spirit. Jundgment just hurts.

Elandra
Being accepted is what its all about.
But what the hell be the woman you what to be if it makes you happy.
Enjoy your right and freedom to be girlie once and a while.
CDing is fun and relaxing but heavy on the wallet.

Elandra, First, great story, second, is that you in your avatar? Great pcture. I am so jealous of you for having such a wonderful SO. She is real keeper, liked her right away from her posts. I look forward to your posts, of both you and Charlie. Congratulations to you both for finding each other... Kristen

no Kristen that is just a pic, i will get some pics of me on soon ok