Hi,Today was the day I sucked it up and went to a Merle Norman for a makeover. IT WAS WOINDERFULL!!!!!!!
To start I spent the last few days planning my day and what I will wear. I also would not have been able to do it without support and company of a female co-worker and my sister. I dressed in undergarments andav silk blouse with my drab clothes. In a bag I brought a Denim long skirt, a black semi-formal jacket, wig, earings and a pair of calf high pull on spike heel boots.
I was sooooooooooo nervous leading up to this. My sis had to drive but as we got closer to the malal and shop inside, I was more excited than nervous. Walking in was scary but the ladies were so nice and polite. I was allwed to go in another room and dress up. A few minutes later I was out in the shop and sitting at a table.
Andrea the beautician and aritst began talking with me and my nerves were jumpy, but soon I settled down and we carried on small talk as we progressed through my makeover. It was sooooooo cool having a pro tend to me and learn from her, techniques ( happily I was not too off in knowledge, but she being a pro was more adventurous to push my makeup style. )
We chatted and she worked on me, soon I was sitting all dressed with wig and face looking smooth and androgenous. She did my eyes and I was looking more like a girl. Mascara next and my eyes were popping out. Bang!!!!! The blush on my cheeks with delicate contouring and my face looked like a girls face, I could not believe what a good blush technique was able to do. Finally she drew out my lips in liner and filled in with too die for almost wine coloured lipstick. WOW!!!!!!! I was lookin good and quite passable, not perefect, no guy truly is but my sis and my female friend were blown away.
The pampering a girlish chit chat with my life story ( sorry Andrea, but it looked like you enjoyed hearing a part of my cding life story ) and soon 1.5 hrs. ticked by.
All done and with a cute pink bag with a few things for Lacey and it was time to walk out the mall. I was not nervous but having two females with me made it easier. Soon I was walking in my 4 inch heels and even though I am good in balance and can walk in heels, it's a little bit un-nerving to walk on hard tile flooring. I found the need to take little steps and careful not to walk like guy. But click, clack I was walking in public and I was a girl...... Ladies.... guess what? I passed numerous people, men , women, older younger including a group of three teen boys NOTHING HAPPENED, NOTHING WENT WRONG. The guys didn't seem to notice me, I was casually scanning but not for nerves but to see response. Females hardly batted an eye and probably thought I was just a tall, nicely dressed and tastefully made up female. Nobody said anything nor took any real time to show curriousity. I have no eyes in the back of my head and maybe with nice skirt , being tall and avg to thin enough in spike heels some might have looked maybe even guys but WHO CARES!!!! I just acted like I deserved to be their and was like any other female. My sister and co-worker friend were there and yes I was the tallest of the three I did not feel nor look out of place.
This is crossroads as there will be little if any reason not to do such or similar ventures again. Maybe not by myself but with others. The staff at the Merle Norman invited me back anytime.
In ending yes it's ok to have fear and nerves a bit, but it is more in our head. I knew this before I went out, and I was proven right. NOBODY CARES at least not enough to notice or try to notice if I am any different from a typical girl.
Edge and nerves will always be there but never as bad as it was before today.
I sit here in my femme glory and after having photos done of me for Lacey's album and I can only say to anyone who is on the edge to go out, find a person or more that you can trust and go out together, get a makeover, or go shopping whatever, stay in typical public places and you surely will feel what I along with many before me have felt.. WONDERFUL and natural and trust me no guilt nor shame but bliss and joy for your femme self.
take care all: Lacey
