Baby Steps...

[Brianna]

Hi! This won't be a long post, (of course, I always say that and they end up being far longer than I imagine at first.)

It's late here in Denver and I have got to get up early to go to work. I have an CD related appointment at 3:30 p.m. that I will keep come hell or high water.

As usual for a Sunday, I had rehearsal. Afterwards I visited my friend who lives near the set shop. Anyway, I did not leave her home until late... 11:30 p.m. or so. By the time I got home it was after midnight.

I had not checked the mail for several days. It one of those things I'm not good about. So I decided I would make an excursion out of it.

I came in the house and shed all of my masculine attire. I have been wearing panties for a few days so those stayed on. I put on panty hose, a pair of womens jeans, a pair of high heels, bra and breast forms, and a blouse. After I was dressed, I got my ID out of my checkbook, (just in case,) and put it in my pocket. I got my keys and I was ready for my first trip into the world. I was only going to the mail box and it was unlikely anyone would ever see me (but one never knows.) I got the mail and came stright back to the house. It was fun.

I'm sure if anyone had seen me they would have had some puzzled looks since I still have a mustache and goatee. I have a little less that a month to go before I can shave them off.

Well, it's late and I need to get to bed. I just wanted to share this with everyone.

Later,

Brianna

[Alexandra]

I know the thrill . . . but perhaps you should take your first steps out of town where you won't be recognized. Later you'll have the experience and confidence to have fun closer to home.

[Beauty]

Hi Brianna,

Those were excellent baby steps!!

Are you going to shave before you go on your outing or are you just planing to be CD'd and never get out of the car?

Thanks for sharing that with us, even if it was short.

Beauty

[Brianna]

Hi! Thank you for your support.

Since it was after midnight I wasn't terribly concerned about running into anyone but it was a possibility. The nice thing about the small trip was it allowed me to walk in high heels for a distance that I had never walked before. I don't have a real masculine walk but it's not real swishy either. I also realized I may need to get the next larger size shoes to allow for some toe room.

The chances of being recognized on an out of town adventure would be less. Of course, there are areas of Denver where I could go and probably never be recognized also. There are even some places that cater to the transgendered community. All of these are options as I explore this new world I'm living in part-time. I may start with a nice drive somewhere quite a ways away.

Do I plan to shave or never get out of the car? I do plan to shave... but not for another month. Any major outing will have to wait until then... The mustache and goatee are pretty critical features to my character in Ruddigore. You can't really have a cavalier without a mustache and goatee... can you?

When I get back from my vacation to Sint Maarten I will be tanned, clean shaven, and ready to ezplore the world more. Also, I will have had some more opportunities to practice with the makeup.

I will keep you posted.

Brianna

[Virginia]

Hi Brianna,
Great start, girl! I would think that Denver has a very active TriEss organization. You may want to check them out and I know they must have some gender friendly stores, restaurants and clubs. As for your feminine attributes, practice, practice, practice. I still put on 4" heels and practice walking up and down stairs, have not got it down yet, but I get better with each trip.
I am not sure what you want to accomplish but if I had the "facial hair" issue, I would not go out with the opportunity to be seen, that is unless you are trying to make an "in your face" statement. Reading your posts that is not where you are, some ouf our sisters are however and bless 'em.
Good luck and keep us posted.
Love,
Deborah

[Brianna]

Last night was a great experience... but not one I plan to repeat soon. I know that things would have been very, very awkward if I had bumped into one of my neighbors. Of course, I also felt that after midnight my risk was low.

I am still figuring much of this out but it was important for me to see if I could leave the house. The fact that I could do it now, with facial hair and all, convinces me that when the day comes for Brianna to hop in the car and head somewhere for some fun I won't be terrified.

In many ways I feel very young again... it's like being a child and getting to play dress up with your mother's clothes.

Have a wonderful night and a great day tomorrow! Going to see Moving Out tomorrow night so that should be fun.

Later,

Brianna

[Hayley]

Quote "I have been wearing panties for a few days so those stayed on". Honey seriously, think of the hygiene issue. A pretty pair for each day of the week should do it.

On a more serious note. Well done Girl! Little steps eventually become a steady run. Stepping out, is always a risk we take, but so is crossing the road. Lose the Fury Face, and then step out with a bit of natural coloured make-up and feel the difference. (less of a risk than with facial hair, even after midnight!). Keep taking those wonderful steps, and let us all know how things go. My respect goes out to you.

[Brianna]

Hi!

I thought some clarification might be necessary for any who misinterpretted my original post. I said "I have been wearing panties for a few days so they stayed on." I should have said I started wearing panties a few days prior to the night when I took my first steps outside the house. Since I was already wearing panties, (a clean pair I had put on earlier in the day,) there was no need to take them off.

Sorry for the confusion.

Brianna

[Hayley]

Sweetie I was joking. Please re-read my post.

[Brianna]

Hayley,

I was hoping you were joking but I thought I would clarify just in case.

I know that the male part of me tends to take things very literally.

Thanks for letting me know though. I appreciate it.

Brianna

[Hayley]

Brianna,
We all have a tendency to take things too literally too often. I will be the first to admit my guilt to that . However, that is why we are all here, so that we may get other perspectives on where we feel we stand in this world. The support you get from this site will help you grow and get to understand yourself and the rest of the girls. And some may eventually get used to my warped sense of humour ( one certainly hopes they do). Any how, if ever you want to chat or e-mail, please don't hesitate to drop me a line.