Time for another one of those vacations that CDs seem to specialize in where everyone else goes away and we stay home with our clothing......
My wife went down south to visit her family today. The kids will be joining her in a couple of days and I will have the rest of the week home alone to myself. Which means I can sleep in my night gowns and hang out around the house in the evening en femme and not worry about someone coming home from school early or something (airline ticket mean no early arrivals, how nice.)
Last time I had a blast doing this. I don't go out socially dressed although last time I had a wonderful midnight walk mostly enfemme during a snowstorm down to the nearby pond and some semi fem hikes that were a lot of fun. I wrote a lot and hung out here a lot and felt like I was getting in touch with something very special.
Usually I also enjoy lots of long wintry walks at odd hours during these times. Walking also helps a lot to deal with anxiety and loneliness. This time that will not be any kind of an option for me, my leg is having all sorts of problems. I am very disappointed as I was thinking this time I would go for some real nice moonlit rambles totally enfemme that I have been picking out the last few months. Not going to happen. There is also the anxiety about what if my leg gets worse, although there is no reason to think it will get unmanageable and if it does I have people I can call on for help.
There will be evenings when I see friends and days when I have to meet with clients and see doctors. So I'll be en homme often which is fine. In the meantime I am looking forward to my time alone in a way that I know everyone here understands. Hopefully I will have some interesting observations to post.
Absaroka
another vacation
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another vacation
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Virginia
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Hey, Hon!
Hope you will post on how you do! You know the good side of having to transition back and forth, it is an opportunity to practice putting on and taking off our make-up and practice makes prefect! I do hope your leg gets better and you can take some of those evening strolls, just stay warm!
Virginia
Hope you will post on how you do! You know the good side of having to transition back and forth, it is an opportunity to practice putting on and taking off our make-up and practice makes prefect! I do hope your leg gets better and you can take some of those evening strolls, just stay warm!
Virginia
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Well I brought the kids to the airport today. It was the first time they got on the plane without me getting a gate pass to go put them on the plane and I was a tad nervous although it's a small airport. They called me once they were on the plane and after it took off I went home.
I felt a little blue like I always do the first day of everyone being gone. I figure it's normal and far better than being thrilled to have them gone. I worked a while and then went to the gym. I won't call what I did a workout-more like movement therapy. But it always cheers me up.
When I got home I packed up all my summer guy clothes and made room for all my femme clothes. So now my closet is half dresses and skirts and half flannel shirts and jeans. And the bureau is half panties, bras, thigh highs and slips and half winter fleeces and tops of either gender. It was really pretty neat to let my clothes come out into the closet. Pretty funny when you think of it, that it's progress to make it to the closet.
BTW I read a while ago that the expression " to come out" which is what gay people call being openly gay had it's origins in meaning to come out of the closet with your clothing and no longer being a closet queen. It's really a crossdressing expresion. I wonder how many people know that. Kind of funny when we are busy trying to let people know that many of us are heterosexual.
Enough of that. DOn't know how many observations I will have. RIght now I'm wearing black pant liners, slip and bralette with a long black skirt and long sleeved green top. Wool socks, unisex sandals and guy flannel shirt. Very cozy and all set to watch Law and Order in a bit.
The clothing has a peaceful relaxed feeling to it. I don't have the thrill that some of the folks here have about the miniskirt and being all dressed up and attractive. Just a pleasant warm feeling from my clothes.
That's all for tonight.
Absaroka
I felt a little blue like I always do the first day of everyone being gone. I figure it's normal and far better than being thrilled to have them gone. I worked a while and then went to the gym. I won't call what I did a workout-more like movement therapy. But it always cheers me up.
When I got home I packed up all my summer guy clothes and made room for all my femme clothes. So now my closet is half dresses and skirts and half flannel shirts and jeans. And the bureau is half panties, bras, thigh highs and slips and half winter fleeces and tops of either gender. It was really pretty neat to let my clothes come out into the closet. Pretty funny when you think of it, that it's progress to make it to the closet.
BTW I read a while ago that the expression " to come out" which is what gay people call being openly gay had it's origins in meaning to come out of the closet with your clothing and no longer being a closet queen. It's really a crossdressing expresion. I wonder how many people know that. Kind of funny when we are busy trying to let people know that many of us are heterosexual.
Enough of that. DOn't know how many observations I will have. RIght now I'm wearing black pant liners, slip and bralette with a long black skirt and long sleeved green top. Wool socks, unisex sandals and guy flannel shirt. Very cozy and all set to watch Law and Order in a bit.
The clothing has a peaceful relaxed feeling to it. I don't have the thrill that some of the folks here have about the miniskirt and being all dressed up and attractive. Just a pleasant warm feeling from my clothes.
That's all for tonight.
Absaroka
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Today was a pleasant day of work and then going out with friends for a bit in the evening. It was of course very nice to wake up in a slip and panties. Today I wore the usual undies with leggings and a knee length black skirt and green peasanty top. Now its time for TV and bed. I've got a nice purple lace nightie with matching g string: something I never wear. Those things feel kind of nice with a skirt on-it's a little nippy on the legs without the skirt. Also black thigh highs. Quite a relaxing outfit.
My wife sometimes tells me she wants to see me in her nightgown. But whenever I do this she gets uncomfortable so I usually take it off soon after. The day she was leaving I told her I might wear her nightgown.
I have a new favorite food, pickled herring. We both had a good laugh at the vision of a somewhat decrepit unshaven middle aged man limping around an empty house in a nightgown leaving a trail of little bits of fish behind him. The sort of thing you really wish the neighborhood kids could peek in on and get a good laugh. Maybe I could mutter incoherently to myself about arcane things. Maybe even talk a bit about the town of Innsmouth, for those of you who get the reference.......
Its been a quiet but nice day.
Absaroka
My wife sometimes tells me she wants to see me in her nightgown. But whenever I do this she gets uncomfortable so I usually take it off soon after. The day she was leaving I told her I might wear her nightgown.
I have a new favorite food, pickled herring. We both had a good laugh at the vision of a somewhat decrepit unshaven middle aged man limping around an empty house in a nightgown leaving a trail of little bits of fish behind him. The sort of thing you really wish the neighborhood kids could peek in on and get a good laugh. Maybe I could mutter incoherently to myself about arcane things. Maybe even talk a bit about the town of Innsmouth, for those of you who get the reference.......
Its been a quiet but nice day.
Absaroka
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Sorry I don't have anything terribly interesting to report. A quiet day of work en femme.
I did have a pleasant surprise while going through stuff I thought I might get rid of. A while ago I bought a bustier which was horribly uncomfortable because it was way too small. Prior to discarding it today I thought I would try it on. Lo and behold it now fits comfortably. Guess I really have lost a lot of weight.
Waking up in the purple lace nightie was nice although it was nippy enough that I had to put a cami on underneath it. Tonight it is supposed to snow and in honor of the occaision I will be wearing all white to bed tonight.
Had a friend over for dinner and had a long talk by the fire. All en homme although she talked about her TS friend at work and how she feels a lot of compassion for what must have been a monumental stuggle for this person. My friend is somewhat conservative and does not have a lot of real understanding of these things but still has a strong conviction that God did not make a mistake and that everyone must be treated with respect. A very nice lady and I enjoyed our chat greatly.
I told her I would try to act like one of the girls since my wife wasn't here. I offered to talk about how the house was a mess and she added that my nails were a mess, I couldn't do anything with my hair and that didn't I think we both needed to lose weight? (we both do) We quickly segued into the inadequacies of available 50 year old men. Then we moved on to more typically guy discussions like how did we really feel about a variety of fairly personal things. I know that people don't think we do that but it's that sort of friendship.
I debated wearing panties or something while she was here to maintain a commonality of feminine wear during the day but it didn't seem right. I wanted to stay real because as I said it's that sort of friendship even though this is a private part of me that I don't share.
After she left I got back into a skirt and cami with shrug and now it's time for tv and then bed.
Night night.
Absaroka
I did have a pleasant surprise while going through stuff I thought I might get rid of. A while ago I bought a bustier which was horribly uncomfortable because it was way too small. Prior to discarding it today I thought I would try it on. Lo and behold it now fits comfortably. Guess I really have lost a lot of weight.
Waking up in the purple lace nightie was nice although it was nippy enough that I had to put a cami on underneath it. Tonight it is supposed to snow and in honor of the occaision I will be wearing all white to bed tonight.
Had a friend over for dinner and had a long talk by the fire. All en homme although she talked about her TS friend at work and how she feels a lot of compassion for what must have been a monumental stuggle for this person. My friend is somewhat conservative and does not have a lot of real understanding of these things but still has a strong conviction that God did not make a mistake and that everyone must be treated with respect. A very nice lady and I enjoyed our chat greatly.
I told her I would try to act like one of the girls since my wife wasn't here. I offered to talk about how the house was a mess and she added that my nails were a mess, I couldn't do anything with my hair and that didn't I think we both needed to lose weight? (we both do) We quickly segued into the inadequacies of available 50 year old men. Then we moved on to more typically guy discussions like how did we really feel about a variety of fairly personal things. I know that people don't think we do that but it's that sort of friendship.
I debated wearing panties or something while she was here to maintain a commonality of feminine wear during the day but it didn't seem right. I wanted to stay real because as I said it's that sort of friendship even though this is a private part of me that I don't share.
After she left I got back into a skirt and cami with shrug and now it's time for tv and then bed.
Night night.
Absaroka
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Well I am sorry I don't have anything too dramatic to report. It was a quiet week with few revelations except that even being cooped up I didn't have enough time to do all the stuff I wanted to do.
Tonight the family comes home. I just finsihed putting my AE back in her coffin. That would be two large wooden boxes I made to keep my femme clothing in which are big enough that the kids wouldn't easily move them and blend in quite nicely with the woodwork in the studio/workroom where I work so that most people would never notice them in the first place. Almost like having a secret cupboard.
I'm still wearing a black skirt, top, slip, and panties however. They can go back in the box in a little while.
I had a vision as I did it, one that we all have probably had. The science fiction story where a scientist creates some being and keeps it under control, locked in a room or the basement. One day the creation refuses to go back into it's room. I had the idea of the clothing saying "no don't put us back there. We liked hanging in your closet with your other clothing. Felt kind of good that some of the guy clothing had to stay in our coffin while we took over half of their closet."
Of course they're just clothes. I have only one personality, one way of relating. My personality doesn't change when I dress like some do here. So they are only material objects, toys in a way.
It's true I have several persona's. But they all come out in guy mode, some more than others.
I guess the big news of the week has nothing to do with any of this. I got the report from the studies on my knee and leg. Lots of doctor speak for something is wrong and we don't know what but it is not some wierd auto immune thing, not arthritis and not a whole lot of other things. In talking to the physical therapist ( the doctor, like my family, is away this week) he says this is probably pretty good news. I feel tremendously more hopeful.
Time to clean the house. I did pretty well with keeping it neat and orderly the first few days but when my friend came over for dinner we didn't do the dishes after. I still haven't done them and and thus didn't do any more dishes. That set the tone and now there really are little scraps of fish and seaweed lying around. I haven't cleaned the floors which means mud and stuff and there are a couple of bones lying by the fireplace in the living room. I know, typical man.......If I hadn't had it in my mind that I need to do a thorough cleaning today I would have cleaned it up a couple days ago since I am not really a slob. I guess you could say that I was playing at being cavewoman in thigh highs......
Hope you folks enjoyed my little anecdotes.
Absaroka
Tonight the family comes home. I just finsihed putting my AE back in her coffin. That would be two large wooden boxes I made to keep my femme clothing in which are big enough that the kids wouldn't easily move them and blend in quite nicely with the woodwork in the studio/workroom where I work so that most people would never notice them in the first place. Almost like having a secret cupboard.
I'm still wearing a black skirt, top, slip, and panties however. They can go back in the box in a little while.
I had a vision as I did it, one that we all have probably had. The science fiction story where a scientist creates some being and keeps it under control, locked in a room or the basement. One day the creation refuses to go back into it's room. I had the idea of the clothing saying "no don't put us back there. We liked hanging in your closet with your other clothing. Felt kind of good that some of the guy clothing had to stay in our coffin while we took over half of their closet."
Of course they're just clothes. I have only one personality, one way of relating. My personality doesn't change when I dress like some do here. So they are only material objects, toys in a way.
It's true I have several persona's. But they all come out in guy mode, some more than others.
I guess the big news of the week has nothing to do with any of this. I got the report from the studies on my knee and leg. Lots of doctor speak for something is wrong and we don't know what but it is not some wierd auto immune thing, not arthritis and not a whole lot of other things. In talking to the physical therapist ( the doctor, like my family, is away this week) he says this is probably pretty good news. I feel tremendously more hopeful.
Time to clean the house. I did pretty well with keeping it neat and orderly the first few days but when my friend came over for dinner we didn't do the dishes after. I still haven't done them and and thus didn't do any more dishes. That set the tone and now there really are little scraps of fish and seaweed lying around. I haven't cleaned the floors which means mud and stuff and there are a couple of bones lying by the fireplace in the living room. I know, typical man.......If I hadn't had it in my mind that I need to do a thorough cleaning today I would have cleaned it up a couple days ago since I am not really a slob. I guess you could say that I was playing at being cavewoman in thigh highs......
Hope you folks enjoyed my little anecdotes.
Absaroka
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Hi Absaroka--
I did enjoy your anecdotes, and I'm happy to hear that the medical news is hopeful. I certainly know the routine about cleaning--if I can't do the "thorough" job, then it just keeps building up. (I'm still enjoying the relatively clean condition I managed to make happen last weekend. )
I must say, I like the term "storage box" a lot better than any other terms that might be applied to them. Maybe when the kids leave home some of the clothes can migrate to one of the closets.
I did enjoy your anecdotes, and I'm happy to hear that the medical news is hopeful. I certainly know the routine about cleaning--if I can't do the "thorough" job, then it just keeps building up. (I'm still enjoying the relatively clean condition I managed to make happen last weekend. )
I must say, I like the term "storage box" a lot better than any other terms that might be applied to them. Maybe when the kids leave home some of the clothes can migrate to one of the closets.
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Absaroka you are fantastic!! You're so much like Missy. She blends both so well.....I'll tell on her <G>!! Today we're just bummin' around the house. Her youngest is with us (he has cerebral palsy so isn't particularly "aware") and as Missy stood up and stretched I noticed under HIS sweatshirt boobage....I almost fell on the floor laughing as I outted her.....she turned flame red and laughed! We're trying on clothes for Vegas after the child goes to bed tonight and s/he thought s/he'd get an early start.....giggling like a loon here!! That's my guy - unshaven and boobage!! .....gotta love it!!
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