Shopping Trip
Posted: Sun Nov 28, 2004 3:29 pm
Hi All,
I haven't posted here so long some of you may wonder who I am. Maybe this is boring, maybe some may find it interesting that knew me from the beginning of the year. Maybe some just getting to know themselves may find solice in my current attitude and shopping trip.
I am settling into an acceptance of myself that is more and more comfortable for me. I went to a Merle Norman make-up store where I have gone before. A woman treated me like a woman although I was dressed semi-female, but obviously male. I am beginning to blurr the male female line comfortably. She was wonderful to me and helped me to select and apply eye shadows. She would apply one and have me do the other. She did that several times until we were done. She was much like what an older loving sister may have been like. I too act much more happy with who I am. It radiates from me and I even like myself when I look into the mirror these days. I know it changes the nature of the contact I have with others all the time about all things. The woman talked like she wanted me to be my prettiest. Gender did not matter as it should be. I bought an eye shadow base on which to apply the eye shadows. My eyes are a little green and I got a holiday purple mix. I left it on and went on shopping to other stores. I felt wonderful. We talked about a couple other items, but told her I could not break the budget. She told me of other cheaper items I could get, to get by with from other stores. I have also been using a lip gloss from her store everyday, even to work. It is called Delites and I have been using Pink Lady. It only moisturizes and brightens my lips a bit.
I went to a Deb's store which I love, yesterday. They have larger sizes in young style. It was the first place I ever tried on a skirt in a store. The young clerk was so kind and helpful to me. I will always remember how she helped me to feel comfortable and not ashamed. I never have tried on clothes yet when fully dressed female. I have tried on many clothes and bought many lovely items over the last 9 months there. I think I would cry if they closed. Last night I bought some pink flare corduroy pants and a pleated jean mini-skirt that is so cute. A couple young clerks helped me and gave me a changing room. One skirt I did not like, and I tried another. It I took. I told them it is so cute. They smiled and one said she was glad I found one that worked for me. A different girl checked me out and I told her and the older manager that I loved their store and would miss them terribly if ever they should close. I told them that they have the most wonderful assistants in town and have never made me feel embarrassed. I told them that they have always been more than professional and have always been kind and helpful. It has been great being able to shop and buy without shame and fear. Shoppers in the store did not seem to mind me. The youngest said you are very welcome and the manager smiled too and said that she has many wonderful girls working there. She said we are happy to serve everyone and hoped I would come visit again soon. You have to understand this is in Nebraska in a 30000 person town. I never believed it was possible a year ago. I know they are trying to sell clothes, but dislike in the eyes is easy to see. Shopping usually renews my faith that humanity still has a future.
I would like to hear of some other happy shopping trips, the store name and state if you feel comfortable enough to share that. Thanks!
I had the most wonderful Thanksgiving, My estranged brother of 27 years and family was in from out of state and stopped to see us. We hugged and cried. We started emailing about two months ago. There are miracles.
Hope all of you had a great holiday also!
Happy Shopping,
Kersten
I haven't posted here so long some of you may wonder who I am. Maybe this is boring, maybe some may find it interesting that knew me from the beginning of the year. Maybe some just getting to know themselves may find solice in my current attitude and shopping trip.
I am settling into an acceptance of myself that is more and more comfortable for me. I went to a Merle Norman make-up store where I have gone before. A woman treated me like a woman although I was dressed semi-female, but obviously male. I am beginning to blurr the male female line comfortably. She was wonderful to me and helped me to select and apply eye shadows. She would apply one and have me do the other. She did that several times until we were done. She was much like what an older loving sister may have been like. I too act much more happy with who I am. It radiates from me and I even like myself when I look into the mirror these days. I know it changes the nature of the contact I have with others all the time about all things. The woman talked like she wanted me to be my prettiest. Gender did not matter as it should be. I bought an eye shadow base on which to apply the eye shadows. My eyes are a little green and I got a holiday purple mix. I left it on and went on shopping to other stores. I felt wonderful. We talked about a couple other items, but told her I could not break the budget. She told me of other cheaper items I could get, to get by with from other stores. I have also been using a lip gloss from her store everyday, even to work. It is called Delites and I have been using Pink Lady. It only moisturizes and brightens my lips a bit.
I went to a Deb's store which I love, yesterday. They have larger sizes in young style. It was the first place I ever tried on a skirt in a store. The young clerk was so kind and helpful to me. I will always remember how she helped me to feel comfortable and not ashamed. I never have tried on clothes yet when fully dressed female. I have tried on many clothes and bought many lovely items over the last 9 months there. I think I would cry if they closed. Last night I bought some pink flare corduroy pants and a pleated jean mini-skirt that is so cute. A couple young clerks helped me and gave me a changing room. One skirt I did not like, and I tried another. It I took. I told them it is so cute. They smiled and one said she was glad I found one that worked for me. A different girl checked me out and I told her and the older manager that I loved their store and would miss them terribly if ever they should close. I told them that they have the most wonderful assistants in town and have never made me feel embarrassed. I told them that they have always been more than professional and have always been kind and helpful. It has been great being able to shop and buy without shame and fear. Shoppers in the store did not seem to mind me. The youngest said you are very welcome and the manager smiled too and said that she has many wonderful girls working there. She said we are happy to serve everyone and hoped I would come visit again soon. You have to understand this is in Nebraska in a 30000 person town. I never believed it was possible a year ago. I know they are trying to sell clothes, but dislike in the eyes is easy to see. Shopping usually renews my faith that humanity still has a future.
I would like to hear of some other happy shopping trips, the store name and state if you feel comfortable enough to share that. Thanks!
I had the most wonderful Thanksgiving, My estranged brother of 27 years and family was in from out of state and stopped to see us. We hugged and cried. We started emailing about two months ago. There are miracles.
Hope all of you had a great holiday also!
Happy Shopping,
Kersten
