Working some what dressed.

[Sarah Beth]

I know this wouldn't be a big deal for most of you, the ones who think nothing about going out dressed and going about your business, but for me this sort of a milestone. I live in a town that is so conservative and stuck in the dark ages that the conversation in the hardware store the other day was about the North Carolina bathroom bill and how they thought we should have that here so if Bruce Jenner came the "fag" would have to stand up to pee like a real man. I told them I didn't think it would matter to any of them because they were hillbillies and didn't use indoor plumbing anyway.

So anyway yesterday was a really rainy dreary day but I knew I had to go out anyway because I'm trying to sort through fifty years of accumulation from my dad's for business so we can start selling it. I work on it on weekends and I knew there wouldn't be anyone around with the weather the way it was and suddenly as I was standing in the bathroom in my panties brushing my teeth I thought no one will be around to see me, why not dress up a bit to go work on my project.

It was cold and I knew I could never get away with wearing a dress anyway but I pulled on some panty hose and my women's carhart jeans with the hammer loop that I never use. I got out this black lace bra that I like because it's so comfortable to wear and over that I put on a a navy blue thermal knit top that I got on clearance from woman within a while back. I thought about wearing my flats but I was afraid I would ruin them digging in the junk so I didn't. After I had my truck started I thought about it and went back in and got my forms and took them with me.

After I got the building I went in and the first thing I did was put my forms in. Now I had never anything like what I was doing while wearing my forms before but it didn't take long before I wasn't even thinking about them. Of course every time I heard a vehicle I jumped and at one point I was standing in front of this large glass window when a pickup pulled up out front and stopped. I almost went into full panic mode as I backed away from the window and started to pull my forms out. Then the guy drove on off. I think he realized it wasn't my dad's truck parked out front.

I took out my forms when I went to home to lunch and was wondering what my wife would say to me. She gave me a bit of a look but nothing was said until after lunch when I was getting ready to leave she said "you're wearing those jeans with the funny front pockets". She knows these are women's jeans we had a discussion about that before.

Then I went back and worked another three hours. I just really enjoyed having that time and feeling like I was actually out somewhere. I don't know why it was so important to me because I never think all that much about going anywhere dressed for a lot of reasons.

Just thought I would share this with you all.

Thank you.

[Davita]

Sarah has taken another step. You wore a lot fem actually and out is out no matter where you went.

Other than being a bit terrified, were you comfortable? Did it make the day go better?

[Hanna]

Congrats Sarah. Helps to turn work into fun.
Guess what, next step you'll go a little further, and then further. Do it and you'll never regret it.

[Sarah Beth]

Davita asked Other than being a bit terrified, were you comfortable? Did it make the day go better?

I was comfortable, when I was busy working I really wasn't thinking how I was dressed but then something would remind and I have to confess at times it made me smile. I do think the day went better. It's hard to explain but it felt so right to me.

It's not something I feel I can do on a regular basis but I am looking forward to the next rainy dreary day when no one will be out and about I might just try to get away with it again.

[Requal Jo]

Thank you for sharing Sarah Beth. Although nervous it sounds as if you had an enjoyable day and will be looking forward to the next adventure; which can not come soon enough.

[Sarah Beth]

Rather than start a whole new thread on the same topic I thought I would just add to this one.

The weather hear after being up into 80's decided to cool off again and get a bit nasty. While everyone else was bemoaning the return of the cold I was inside happy about it. Yesterday morning early I got up knowing I should pretty much have my time during the day alone, put on my panties, I do wear them most days but knowing I would be able to wear a heavy shirt I put on a bra, rather than the sports bra I normally wear when I do this I wore a blue lace bra and feeling bold I put in some gel filled breast enhancers. They don't add much but I can tell at least that I have them and they are noticeable even with the ladies thermal henley I was wearing. I wore women's jeans and socks and so I was dressed all fem except for my shoes. I don't have sneakers in women's size haven't found any to fit and I don't want to scuff of and get my flats dirty.

So there I was spent my entire day like that. It felt wonderful. When I went home for lunch my wife didn't even say anything and I was sure she would because I know she recognized the clothes I was wearing.

So today is cold and gloomy again but I'm not. I already know which bra I'm wearing.

[Anne Bonny]

You are only allowing yourself to be who you really are. That your wife knows and also allows you out of the house is wonderful. I believe I am in about the same phase like driving to the atm, going outside to get the mail or to take trash out. Jogging though no one seems to be able to tell what I am wearing is made exclusively for women to wear. These are small steps. And I absolutely understand your jumping back and feeling a little self conscious or fearful but have you ever gone out in front of the store at about the same time of day and looked in from that distance to see how much someone would really see? I have from my house the blinds are always fully open and during the day it is impossible to see in. But the neighbor was getting her mail the other day and I had my gel pads in giving my chest a little noticeable fullness..she hesitated for a moment as if she might turn and talk to me...I do want to clear the air with them as I want to be able to not even have any thoughts about how I am dressed anymore when I leave the house to go anywhere...why should we after all...we are in a very real sense because of our gender partly feminine, granted for myself it comes and goes but we should not be concerned in the least that people think of us as we are...be that as women or men...and the longer they know us the more they will understand that we are just who we are and that oh... he is feeling masculine today...or feminine about his self does that, should that matter to us? Not in the least...we are the ones with the problem, and that problem in the one in our own head much much more than the few crude neanderthals we may encounter out there. I have been to the grocery store several times twice in women's mode just jeans tennis shoes and a top, and all, once in make up but guy clothes no one ever said a thing and this is in coastal Mississippi which is a mix of redneck country, Vietnamese, and more cosmopolitan attitudes. This is the Bible belt but then again this is not a small town deep in the country either.

Another helpful thought is...well, what if this man got out of his truck and came and banged on the door thinking your dad was there...what would you have done? Why not answer the door? I answered the door in a dress and at "full sail" to Animal Control when my dog got out...he was more afraid of me than I of him...he stepped back stammering and wide eyed! but collected his self and proceeded to inform me about my dog and that I needed to go where they had him boxed in to get him. Now I did change quickly when I went but hey...I did answer the door so that is progress and I was not properly dress to chase and grab a dirty wet dog as the dog tends to go into the water around our home.... So people see me and know hey that's where that guy lives.... so what!? Why should I be concerned that they have a really really screwed up idea of who I am? They have no idea who I am. At times I am every bit as masculine as they are, sometimes not. They have my sexuality wrong well screw them! The dog has not managed to get out the door lately as I have taken to using a dog leash around a chair leg when people come to visit...they do not think about the dog when opening the door, coming in or leaving.