the end of the rope

[MiMi (SO)]

Lorna,

Oh please don't go! I have wanted to bring up the subject of religion for a while now & felt I would have offended many. I just found out I can talk to you about CD & not fitting in to a religious conformation.

I can only imagine what you must be going through. I often feel ostracized because I do not believe in God. Like you, I have no need to change others beliefs, I only want the freedom to enjoy mine. I also want others to realize just because I don't believe in a supernatural God does not mean I believe in Satan.

I've wanted to bring the subject of religion up on this site because I wondered how people who CD are effected by their religious beliefs or lack there of. I can imagine you are different only two major fronts of life - your religious beliefs and your dressing demands. I can understand where this could be very confusing and isolating. Please don't go, dark places rarely bring bright outcomes. Stay here, I'm certain even those that don't agree with your religious beliefs can accept you. I've found communication on this site to be some of the most intelligent conversation I've ever heard. Given I live with a CDing, borderline genius that's really saying something.

Keep talking & listening. I've recently joined a Humanist Organization, there's probably one in your area. I've found members there to be very accepting and intelligent.

Whenever I was down on my luck I struggled to stay active and stay in touch. Yes, I know that may be the last thing you want to do right now. Keep an open mind and an open heart, who know where it will lead you?

Very selfishly speaking...MiMi

[Lorna]

It has been a few weeks since I entered that long, dreadful post.

Am I feeling better today as opposed to when I posted that? In all honesty - NO.

But don't worry, I am NOT going anywhere, so please don't panic. I just needed a place to vent without wasting too much forum space so I'll just use this old thread.

I find it more and more difficult to trust anyone or anything around me anymore. My faith in the human race dwindles every day.

• 1. All the places where I applied for jobs who said they'd be in contact - CANNOT be trusted!
  2. All the temp agencies who promised me work - CANNOT be trusted!
  3. My creditors who promised special "arrangements" or "deferrals" until I got back on my feet - CANNOT be trusted!
  4. My face-to-face friends who said they'd be there - CANNOT be trusted!
  5. My own damn relatives who skip out on their kids - CANNOT be trusted!
  6. This damn president of ours who singlehandedly DESTROYED the economy and DIVIDED an entire nation - CANNOT BE !@#$%&* TRUSTED!!!

All I know is that I truly feel ill today. Maybe it's just the nicotine withdrawals causing my crazy mood... who knows. If my mood swings are like this now, can you imagine a basket case like ME on hormones???

Eh, who gives a flying **** anyway.

[Celia]

Nicotine withdrawal can play havoc with a smoker's emotions under the best of circumstances, Lorna, and I'm certain you'll agree that your circumstances have been better. As for the nic fits, about all I can offer, unfortunately, is may it pass quickly.

Yours,
Celia

[Lorna]

Thanks for the good wishes Celia, but the truth of the matter is no rough situation in my life ever does.