What do you see in the mirror?

Gelinda · Post by **Gelinda** » Sat Jul 17, 2004 9:38 pm

Thanks: Elizabeth and Deborah:

I have been in the downside of misery for a while and have to get out of it. I need to get back to church. Money problems and my son's problem plus being so far from home has been wearing on me. Let alone falling off the band wagon with the drinking the other day after so many years.

I will win I do not know anyother way, This place is my journal to most of my soul. I use to write it all down in a journal when i got this way. was taught that one after my tour of nam. I have not written in a journal for a long time either, have been using this site for that that. which is amazing in its self as no one has ever read my journals as they are in a lock box. Some times when I go back and read them myself, they even make me want to run away to see what the past has been. An not knowing the future.

I am going to have to get my radio )Ham Radio) gear back out and get into something to work on my mind. The schooling is getting old but only have this course and 13 more to having my masters.

Everyone, I am sorry for rambling and being so negative all the time lately but that has been my life as of late. Thanks again for being here. GEE..

Rebecca · Post by **Rebecca** » Sun Jul 18, 2004 1:52 am

Hi Danielle,

As Rebecca, I can relate to what you say, 'who am I kidding'. But then again, in my drabbies I feel I look drab.... I'm working on it .

Either way, I must lose some weight

Love
Rebecca xxx

Kersten Lee · Post by **Kersten Lee** » Sun Jul 18, 2004 11:28 am

Elizabeth,
It kills me to read what you write. I too find woman react friendlier towards me in sandles and painted toes glistening. I too wondered the same reasons like you.

In the next post I described myself exactly like you did and in the end to find it was a lie and empty. I just hope my wife continues to be loving and accepting of the new me. You write so honestly and child like. I admire that.

Take Care,
Kersten