Do you like being outrageous?

[Elizabeth]

Hi girls,

I have always used my verbal skills to shock people, but yes I guess in that regard I have always been outrageous. I spent 11th grade in Wyoming and bleached my hair, this was before any had ever done it, especially in Wyoming. Everyone in town knew who I was.

I would not say I am a crossdresser because I am outrageous, I would say I am outrageous because I am a crossdresser. Once you accept that you are not going to be accepted, it frees you to be outrageous because you no longer fear being publically shunned. In fact it has the opposite effect. You become accepted for you willingness to challenge the status quo, at least in my opinion.

I think once I got married and had kids that all changed. My need to support my family outweighed my need to strike back at a society that would not accept me. I found no benifit in antisocial behavior and basically became a comformist outside my home, and kept my personal beleifs to myself and some close friends and family.

I do not look at my coming out as a crossdresser at all as being outrageous. In many regards it scares me. But I am just tired of being scared. I think that has more to do with it than any other thing. Same with my divorce. I am just tired of being scared.

Scared of being outted, scared of not being accepted, scared of my kids being harmed, scared of my wife leaving, scared of my brothers and sisters not accepting me. I just don't want to be scared any more.

Love always,
Elizabeth

[Lorna]

Once you accept that you are not going to be accepted, it frees you to be outrageous because you no longer fear being publically shunned. In fact it has the opposite effect. You become accepted for you willingness to challenge the status quo, at least in my opinion.

BINGO!!! I totally agree 110%.