Hello everyone, I hope your alright with me posting. I know I left and never said anything like about a year and a half ago but I hit that phase again where I got rid of all Sophies stuff and tried to kill her off again. I haven't dressed since December 2004 when I returned to work after being off ill for a few months.
I had a moment last year where I almost started again but I somehow resisted and it went away, but I think I know now whatever I do she's always gonna be there. I haven't a problem with being Sophie, I do love her and I really so badly missed her all last year, cos during 2004 I really accepted her etc but I just want to be like everyone else and live a normal life, like I worry bout what's gonna happen at work.
When I stopped dressing I sold most of my stuff on eBay, threw a couple bags of stuff out and the only thing I kept was my jewellery box with a necklace my Mum brought me. So last week I was going through the cupboards and I found the box and I think that's when it started to come back.
Anyways, today for the first time I dressed up and I felt at ease again. And now I'm worried it's gonna take over my life again. I am an all or nothing type person so if I start dressing again I will want to shave my legs, sort out my eyebrows shave my arms etc but I can't cos I have to work.
Oh well, I am just so glad this place is still going, so many of you helped me during that difficult time in 2004 and so many of you gave me the courage to do things I only ever dreamed about. I was worried this site would have gone like a few of my other favourite sites. Nice to see most of you girls are still here as well, Lorna and CJ but I can't see Beauty? Is she still around?
You know what tho, I wish I was born a girl cos all this confusion would go away, but knowing me I'd probably wanna be a boy if I was born a girl lol
Sophie
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SophieLawson
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DonnaT
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Hi Sophie, welcome back! 
Beauty changed her name to Gracie, and recently decided to transition. She no longer posts here. She posts on My Husband Betty forum now. I'll PM you her email address. I know she'll want to talk to you again.
So good to hear you are well. I sympathize with your plight. It is very hard to not dress. Good luck with it. Just don't let it interfere with what you need to do to be happy.
I don't know where you are working, but at least in the UK the gender act provides you with a good deal of support if you find yourself dressing again.
Beauty changed her name to Gracie, and recently decided to transition. She no longer posts here. She posts on My Husband Betty forum now. I'll PM you her email address. I know she'll want to talk to you again.
So good to hear you are well. I sympathize with your plight. It is very hard to not dress. Good luck with it. Just don't let it interfere with what you need to do to be happy.
I don't know where you are working, but at least in the UK the gender act provides you with a good deal of support if you find yourself dressing again.
DonnaT
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Carolynn
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Hi there Sophie!! 
So nice to see you back here. I have occasionally wondered if you were OK and still dressing or not. I do know about the purges and the denial thing, all too well. Just remember next time, it's OK to blow hot and cold on dressing, but it will be back and just pack things away very carefully for your next needs. As far as shaving your legs, well a lot more guys are doing that than used to (and body) to the delight of many ladies, and there is less notice even being taken. If you use Aveeno lotion with a slight hair retardent, it will be easier to keep smooth, longer. Does you job result in frequent leg exposure?
Anyway, welcome back, and look forward to catching up with you.
Love,
Carolynn
So nice to see you back here. I have occasionally wondered if you were OK and still dressing or not. I do know about the purges and the denial thing, all too well. Just remember next time, it's OK to blow hot and cold on dressing, but it will be back and just pack things away very carefully for your next needs. As far as shaving your legs, well a lot more guys are doing that than used to (and body) to the delight of many ladies, and there is less notice even being taken. If you use Aveeno lotion with a slight hair retardent, it will be easier to keep smooth, longer.
Does you job result in frequent leg exposure? Anyway, welcome back, and look forward to catching up with you.
Love,
Carolynn
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Virginia
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Hi Sophie,
I too am glad you are back!! I must admit I was a bit mystified when you just seemed to disappear. Guess you have learned lesson #1 once a crossdresser, always a crossdresser! You can deny it, suppress it, depress it, repress it, try and ignore it, but it is always there and it is truly a gift!!!!
I understand the "problems" that arise in trying to balance your life. You HAVE TO FIND THAT BALANCE! Once you find it the world becomes a beautiful place. Work on it girl, it is there and you can find it! Shave your arms - long sleeve shirts; panties and panty hose under long pants and socks, a bit of mascara very light, lip gloss, neutral low gloss nail polish, paint those toenails bright red!!!!! You can push the envelop and still enjoy your self.
Hope you stay and share with us!
Love,
Virginia
I too am glad you are back!! I must admit I was a bit mystified when you just seemed to disappear. Guess you have learned lesson #1 once a crossdresser, always a crossdresser! You can deny it, suppress it, depress it, repress it, try and ignore it, but it is always there and it is truly a gift!!!!
I understand the "problems" that arise in trying to balance your life. You HAVE TO FIND THAT BALANCE! Once you find it the world becomes a beautiful place. Work on it girl, it is there and you can find it! Shave your arms - long sleeve shirts; panties and panty hose under long pants and socks, a bit of mascara very light, lip gloss, neutral low gloss nail polish, paint those toenails bright red!!!!! You can push the envelop and still enjoy your self.
Hope you stay and share with us!
Love,
Virginia
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Merinda
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Hi Sophie,
Its good to hear from you again
Welcome back
Like yourself I have just come through a bad patch that lasted a year , I didnt stop dressing but found it very difficult especially when everything associated went wrong for me.
I decided to take a lesser role rather than give it up , in that way Merinda is still here when required.
It is almost impossible to give it up Sophie , I have tried a few times in the past only to be hit with the expence of new cloths purchasing some time thereafter.
once again " welcome Back" Sophie
Its good to hear from you again
Welcome back
Like yourself I have just come through a bad patch that lasted a year , I didnt stop dressing but found it very difficult especially when everything associated went wrong for me.
I decided to take a lesser role rather than give it up , in that way Merinda is still here when required.
It is almost impossible to give it up Sophie , I have tried a few times in the past only to be hit with the expence of new cloths purchasing some time thereafter.
once again " welcome Back" Sophie
Merinda