Nice to be back home but...

[LeeAnn]

So I got back home recently from New Orleans. It feels so good not to have to worry about going back for a good while. That part of my job should be done for at least another 4 months or so. I did enjoy all the shopping, I bought a lot of things for Lee Ann to wear. On the way back yesterday I stopped by an outlet and bought a lbd. A saleslady helped me pick it out. She said that basic black I could not go wrong for the lady I was buying it for. I was tempted to say that the lady was me but I kept that to myself. I tried the dress on when I got home and it fit very nice.

Now comes the interesting part and the thing that might change everything. Before I left I made sure i tightly closed the closet door as I have some of Lee Ann's things in there. I have my things hanging up not really hidden but not showing as well (except for my bras I have hanging up in front). I noticed that the closet was ajar when I got home. I am thinking my sister who has been taking care of my cat might have been snooping. If so I am sure she saw the bras hanging up . If she saw that I am sure that the cat will be out of the bag (so to speak) soon. It might have been my cat that opened the closet door though as she likes to sleep in there. She has done things before that have amazed me. But if she did then I am sure that my sister went looking for the cat when she came over to feed my cat. She would have gone to the closet since it was opened.

So I asked myself how I was going to handle this if she saw anything. I have decided to handle it straight on. So what if getting dressed up and being Lee Ann makes me feel good, as she is a part of my life and who I am. If that offends you than I am very sorry for that. I know that some of my family members are going to have a problem with Lee Ann and I have also decided that I will not dress up as her when I am with them if it upsets them.

I am not going to stop being me. I have for once in my life found myself. It makes me happy and it hurts no one. So if my family has a problem than so be it, i will just tell them they have to deal with it.

Have a good one all... I want to thank all the lovely ladies here that have helped me with everything. I am sure I would be in a panic with my sister thing if it was not for all of you. You have giving me so much courage to face things like this.

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Lee Ann

[Carol Ann]

LeeAnn,
Why not just play it cool for a while and see what happens, I would wait for her to ask the question then you go which ever way you feel best about.

[Davita]

I'm with Carol Ann. Just play the don't ask don't tell game. Heck, maybe your sister, if she saw things, is thinking you have a girlfriend sneaking about. If that's what she's thinking, you know she will ask and then you know she saw something. If she doesn't ask, then you just get to wonder....

Now about that hanging things up in your closet. If you want to hide them in the closet, I think every closet has that one spot where the clothes are hard to see and reach. You can add to that by hanging a coat (preferably a longer coat) in the way or a suit bag (even one of those plastic bags the sales lady would put your LBD in). Those two items just add to obscuring the view. Umm was the bra hanging up because you had just gotten it and they gave you the hanger or were you drying it while you were gone? If you were drying it, if you are running your A/C and you hang the bra where there is some airflow, it should be dry over night. Don't know if this tidbit is anything new for you.

[Anthony Simon]

I'm with my sisters, LeAnn. You need to leave it turn out like it's going to turn out. Of course saying that and doing that are two completely different things. I do have a tendency to run to panic in this sort of situation (but also there's a voice in my head, "my woman", who works against that) - so then I have the sort of panic you're talking about. But also my head goes round and round trying to work out stuff - actually dressing up helps calm me and gets things in perspective, and basically placid is where you want to go with this.

If your sister's found out stuff, doubtless she'll tell you (or otherwise indicate) in good time. But you need to let her do it (if that's where it's at). The hardest part of this is the anxiety you're going to be subject to - and of course that taps into your anxieties about how people are going to view your CDing.

[Anita]

You seem to have a good attitude about it, LeeAnn. I know you may not always feel that bravery in the days to come, but it's out of your hands now, as others have pointed out.

You mention:

I am not going to stop being me. I have for once in my life found myself.

And that is a strong motivator. Keep remembering this as you go along. In the days when I first was going out, I would feel vague anxiety or fear about someone or something 'taking it away.' It took me about three months to realize that the only person who could take it away was me, and I wasn't going to let that happen.

[LeeAnn]

Thanks again for the wonderful help. I have received so much here. I will just let things go the way they are going. It does not bother me tpp much that she might have seen some things, it bothers me more that she might have been snooping. I think I will take the advice here that the ladies have given, don't ask anything and don't tell anything. If she asks about the clothes I am going to come right outside and deal with it. I am sure it will not be the worst thing that has happened this year to me which I seem to be paying everyone and their mother in the local government for (my DUI story should be in previous post). For that I have given up drinking 100%. I am sure my family will see that as a positive thing.

Have a good one all, I need to get some laundry cleaned and clean my bras (I wash those by hand).

Lee Ann

[Leeza]

LeeAnn,

It sounds like a good plan. Let her bring up the subject if she wants to.

Leeza