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I have been thinking of my gender speculating that I am 60% masculine, 40% feminine. Someone challenged me on that and I believe they are right that I need to in so many words...Stop with the percentages! There are just aspects - hum...not sure how to explain it - I am who I am. I have a love of pretty like women do I suppose, I like some of the same things without being homosexual or perverted (to call a deviation from what society calls normal is not abnormal it's just not as common and differs - yes - but it is not abnormal!!). I enjoy things women enjoy and am not afraid nor am I ashamed of it (or embarrassed by it) but I do have to hold it close to the vest society is cruel and there are so many myths and hateful twisted thoughts about it all assumptions people make up without even understanding anything about any of it at all. We are decent human beings why can't we be like this? And most of the time I am pretty macho because I am a guy after all. I have a very strong self confidence. I can be verbally attacked, subjected scorn intended to embarrass, and to humiliate and would be but when I am back safely living as I please I am who I am. I am the same person I have always been. I enjoy seeing hard glossy shiny red toenails,or wearing things that feel quite different and which also brings emotional spiritual bliss, but I know I have to pick my venue on that, and cover up in mixed company when I am of a mood to enjoy such things. I am mostly a man but I enjoy some of the same things women enjoy and all that that entails- leaving it at that I think that is the best way I can put it.

And I suppose that is why no one knows - I am a masculine man even internally much of the time and when I am visiting with you (my sister), but not always and as I said this has been who I have been from a very young age. Leaving it at that I think that is the best way I can put it.

I mean when you think about we are only protecting ourselves and our own privacy because of society and social mores, twisted assumptions and myths with absolutely no factual basis attached to them, ridicule, scorn, even social, financial, and physical ramifications all from fear and hatred of what most people do not understand - fear.

You have come about as close to what I feel that anyone is probably going to come other than myself. Thanks for saying it. I have no desire to be considered anything but a man but I see no harm in having the joy of enhancing myself to the point of being considered beautiful. Why can't men be pretty too? Most of the time I have to do the kind of work that would just ruin the kind of clothing that I prefer to wear so it doesn't make sense to dress this way while working. But when I am done working I like to dress for the rest of the day in the most atractive maner possible. No sitting around the house in my skivies and tank top.
I like to shower and shave again and be ready to enjoy my wife and she likes to see me in something pretty with my face made beautiful with tasteful makeup. After all it was my big beautiful eyes that caught her attention when she was in High School.
Not all men will agree with me and I don't expect them to, but at the same time why should I live in fear of their opinion. I have only been approached by one man about being different and that was an employee of the super market where I shop. I had just gotten my first pair of very hight heels. I always break in a new pair of heels at the super market. He asked if this was the new trend. I told him that I hoped so because I was dedicated to it and that I liked being taller. He said that he wished me well.
I believe that if we are prepared to come back with an admission of our dedication to an advance in style that we can turn scorn to agreement. That said, I will give some one else a chance to distroy my opinion. LOL

Rhanda