In recent weeks I've been thinking about feelings when dressed as a girl as opposed to when we are our male selves.
When I dress fully, clothes, under garments, heels, wig and makeup I see my femme side and feel so girly, so at peace with my inner self. I also notice that as such I feel about my thoughts on a desire to know and wanting to feel how a man would treat me as a girl. I wonder (as I've never done such) from my female persona about the joy a lady shall feel with a proper male courting her on a date. I look at myself all dolled up as good as I can make Lacey up say standing before a full length mirror or in the gazillion photos and videos I made of Lacey and dream of how lovely those feelings would be. To be seen as an attractive lady and desirable for a man, to have my hand held, doors opened, seated at a restaurant and just treated like a lady (I'm not even talking sexually). It makes me bubbly when I'm dressed.
I use to not give that much thought, but in recent years as I try and try to refine my feminine look and demeanor, these thoughts come to forth in my mind. It's odd as a male and I man in drab and I am a regular guy I have NO, ZIP, ZERO thoughts of being with a man. I'm not a gay male (in the voice of Seinfeld, "Not that there is anything wrong with that."
) so I only look at girls in that way. But as Lacey, I think about not only of having girly friendships and what it would be like to have like minded girl friends but also I feel about the male / female courtship ideals. I think it would be so wonderful to have such. Not trying to be too political, but in recent times, I've been learning more and more about 'modern' 3rd wave feminism and I sorta feel sorry for these women. In that much of their ideology would preclude such wonderful ladylike feelings to have a gentleman court and treat them so wonderfully as ladies. If I had the courage to do so as a cder or if I was born a GG, I'd LOVE every day, every time where I could have such wonderful time and feeling with a proper gentleman.
