Gaw! I'm there!!!
Posted: Mon Jun 24, 2019 11:21 am
I think I feel better being able to be who I am, knowing psychiatry tells me there is nothing wrong with me, the sense of myself that colors all of who I am female inside. Dressing much more and just dressing...like in clothes....that are made for who I am and being more open about it really is a good thing...a boost in my confidence so that knowing I am a good person...I am prepared to defend myself! To be positive...and if I desire to dress male...it's alright...it's about being comfortable. Made a new contact through the psychologist...someone who is as I am, about my age and who's wife has Alzheimer's...we have a lot in common and are just alike it is amazing! All the pressure is off and I am comfortable just being able to be who I am without feeling torn or wrong because of it! Being who I am inside after nearly a lifetime is really wonderful.
It feels very nice! Just to be able to live and to simply be who I am. To release feeling it is wrong to be who I am as I have my whole life! To be more open and confident and to stand up for myself... what I wear reflects and is made for exactly who I am inside whatever I am wearing and am comfortable in wearing as I remove the "gender" when I choose what I want to wear...If I am comfortable in something that is considered acceptable because of my body, fine and if it is because of who I am inside and am thrilling to the fact that I am finally wearing what I like because it is and has always been right for me then ...it is like a dream come true.
I am living more openly, I am buying things that I need...for real and am not settling for anything less but for exactly the look that I want! Have new sandals from Greece they are wonderful. Have items coming because while I have a nice full wardrobe it should have in it every item that I should have and will need as a woman! And it is with a very discerning eye as I buy that which will enhance and will work on my body so that I look nice. I am also free to be a man...it is all about being absolutely comfortable as I begin to venture out I am free to go get the mail, take out the garbage, go running, a little skittish about going to the psychiatrist but I have made purchases putting together the outfit I have in mind for that...Sandals or lady topsiders, Bermuda shorts, an open neck blouse with vertical blue and white stripes and a pretty set of beads along with my purse, make up and hair styled...it has some growth to go to get back to the length in my avitar but probably within a month of there. Make up...classy, and fits exactly with what any woman my age would wear going to see her physician as well as being right for me...as a guy it is the female equivalent of that...casual but classy and smart!
It feels very nice! Just to be able to live and to simply be who I am. To release feeling it is wrong to be who I am as I have my whole life! To be more open and confident and to stand up for myself... what I wear reflects and is made for exactly who I am inside whatever I am wearing and am comfortable in wearing as I remove the "gender" when I choose what I want to wear...If I am comfortable in something that is considered acceptable because of my body, fine and if it is because of who I am inside and am thrilling to the fact that I am finally wearing what I like because it is and has always been right for me then ...it is like a dream come true.
I am living more openly, I am buying things that I need...for real and am not settling for anything less but for exactly the look that I want! Have new sandals from Greece they are wonderful. Have items coming because while I have a nice full wardrobe it should have in it every item that I should have and will need as a woman! And it is with a very discerning eye as I buy that which will enhance and will work on my body so that I look nice. I am also free to be a man...it is all about being absolutely comfortable as I begin to venture out I am free to go get the mail, take out the garbage, go running, a little skittish about going to the psychiatrist but I have made purchases putting together the outfit I have in mind for that...Sandals or lady topsiders, Bermuda shorts, an open neck blouse with vertical blue and white stripes and a pretty set of beads along with my purse, make up and hair styled...it has some growth to go to get back to the length in my avitar but probably within a month of there. Make up...classy, and fits exactly with what any woman my age would wear going to see her physician as well as being right for me...as a guy it is the female equivalent of that...casual but classy and smart!