I love being me now.
Posted: Sun Aug 15, 2004 1:50 am
Hi girls,
I went out yesterday fully dressed with my youngest son age 10. He did not go into the bank with me because he was worried about what people might think. He wanted to go out with me, but once we started I could see he was upset, so I told him to just stay in the car while I went into the Bank, I left the car running with A/C and locked the doors and ran into the bank.
After we left there he told me that he was not ashamed of me, but he was just worried. So I suggested that he could go to Wal-Mat with me but he could go in before me, buy what he needed, and I would follow him. That way no one would know he was with me, and he could see that no one treated me different, and if they did, it was to be extra nice to me.
It went off just as I thought, and I followed him in line, but by the time I was leaving he was waiting for me just past the Checkout, and now felt quite comfortable being with me, even though I was fully dressed in girls clothes, lipstick, and a little mascara, earrings nails polished and a girls wallet.
He talked to me all the way to the car about how it was really no big deal and he had been worried for nothing. I told him I felt the same. Except of course being out as me just makes me so happy there is not words. And to be out with my son, and not only the society being accepting of me, but also my son, just put the biggest smile on my face, and his too.
Today I was looking for a book and had to go to several book stores to find it. Again I was fully dressed, lipstick, mascara, bracelet, watch, nails, shoes. Blue coulettes and this really great blouse that I don't know how to describe, except to sayt that it was extremely feminine. with long loose sleeves that flare at the end with ruffles. and likewise have the same flare and ruffles at the bottom of the blouse.
Finally I went to Walden Books in this shopping plaza and when I entered a very attractive woman in her early 40's, tall and dirty blond hair asked if she could help me. She had nice makeup and red lipstick and a beautiful smile.
I put my arms slightly away from my body palms up in the, here I am gesture, and said "I don't want to shock you but?" and as I did I looked down at my body head to toe. And when I looked up she looked very concerned like she was worried that I was going to say or do something more shocking than coming in her store crossdressed. And just as the worry on her face peaked I said "Do you have 'Do your own divorce in California?'" It totally cracked her up and she started laughing and got a huge smile on her face and "Come on" and motioned me with her hand to follow her.
She took me right to the book, got it down and handed it to me, still smiling and I said "Well it is kinda funny". She smiled big again and asked me if I needed anything else. I told her "no" and she led me to the checkout and I paid, she thanked me and I left.
I later had to go to Kinko's where a very nice young woman and man, both in thier early 20's treated me just great.
Finally, I am taking my kids to the beach tomorrow, so we needed a "Boogie Board". For those of you not near an ocean, it is like a small foam surfboard, used to bodysurf the waves. My 13 year old son asked if he could go with me. I told him he did not have to go, if it was just to try to make me feel good. He assureed me that he was not embarrased of me, and just wanted to go. So we went, but they did not have a boogie board. My son suggested that we go to another Wal-Mart to try to find one, which we did and found one.
It was also a great trip. We talked and laughed and joked and were just ourselves. Everyone treated me great. So now all of my kids have seen for themselves that this crossdressing thing is nothing to fear. No one really cares. They now all realize that I am the same dad they have always known. Perhaps in a different package, but still the same. And the way I interact with my kids is just the same as it always has been, no matter how I am dressed, and that is how they treat me
We confronted myth with truth, we confronted the unknown with real life experience, we confronted fear with love. And the feeling of love between me and my children has never been so strong, and not just between me and them, but also between them.
But now that I can finally be me? Everywhere, at home and in public. I just love being me, and would not want to be anyone else. I never thought I would feel that way.
I am not a crossdresser. I am a person, a loving, caring person, who happens to crossdress. And as usual, it took my kids to teach me this.
Again, I just feel terrific and can not wait to see what new delights tomorrow will bring.
Love always,
Elizabeth
I went out yesterday fully dressed with my youngest son age 10. He did not go into the bank with me because he was worried about what people might think. He wanted to go out with me, but once we started I could see he was upset, so I told him to just stay in the car while I went into the Bank, I left the car running with A/C and locked the doors and ran into the bank.
After we left there he told me that he was not ashamed of me, but he was just worried. So I suggested that he could go to Wal-Mat with me but he could go in before me, buy what he needed, and I would follow him. That way no one would know he was with me, and he could see that no one treated me different, and if they did, it was to be extra nice to me.
It went off just as I thought, and I followed him in line, but by the time I was leaving he was waiting for me just past the Checkout, and now felt quite comfortable being with me, even though I was fully dressed in girls clothes, lipstick, and a little mascara, earrings nails polished and a girls wallet.
He talked to me all the way to the car about how it was really no big deal and he had been worried for nothing. I told him I felt the same. Except of course being out as me just makes me so happy there is not words. And to be out with my son, and not only the society being accepting of me, but also my son, just put the biggest smile on my face, and his too.
Today I was looking for a book and had to go to several book stores to find it. Again I was fully dressed, lipstick, mascara, bracelet, watch, nails, shoes. Blue coulettes and this really great blouse that I don't know how to describe, except to sayt that it was extremely feminine. with long loose sleeves that flare at the end with ruffles. and likewise have the same flare and ruffles at the bottom of the blouse.
Finally I went to Walden Books in this shopping plaza and when I entered a very attractive woman in her early 40's, tall and dirty blond hair asked if she could help me. She had nice makeup and red lipstick and a beautiful smile.
I put my arms slightly away from my body palms up in the, here I am gesture, and said "I don't want to shock you but?" and as I did I looked down at my body head to toe. And when I looked up she looked very concerned like she was worried that I was going to say or do something more shocking than coming in her store crossdressed. And just as the worry on her face peaked I said "Do you have 'Do your own divorce in California?'" It totally cracked her up and she started laughing and got a huge smile on her face and "Come on" and motioned me with her hand to follow her.
She took me right to the book, got it down and handed it to me, still smiling and I said "Well it is kinda funny". She smiled big again and asked me if I needed anything else. I told her "no" and she led me to the checkout and I paid, she thanked me and I left.
I later had to go to Kinko's where a very nice young woman and man, both in thier early 20's treated me just great.
Finally, I am taking my kids to the beach tomorrow, so we needed a "Boogie Board". For those of you not near an ocean, it is like a small foam surfboard, used to bodysurf the waves. My 13 year old son asked if he could go with me. I told him he did not have to go, if it was just to try to make me feel good. He assureed me that he was not embarrased of me, and just wanted to go. So we went, but they did not have a boogie board. My son suggested that we go to another Wal-Mart to try to find one, which we did and found one.
It was also a great trip. We talked and laughed and joked and were just ourselves. Everyone treated me great. So now all of my kids have seen for themselves that this crossdressing thing is nothing to fear. No one really cares. They now all realize that I am the same dad they have always known. Perhaps in a different package, but still the same. And the way I interact with my kids is just the same as it always has been, no matter how I am dressed, and that is how they treat me
We confronted myth with truth, we confronted the unknown with real life experience, we confronted fear with love. And the feeling of love between me and my children has never been so strong, and not just between me and them, but also between them.
But now that I can finally be me? Everywhere, at home and in public. I just love being me, and would not want to be anyone else. I never thought I would feel that way.
I am not a crossdresser. I am a person, a loving, caring person, who happens to crossdress. And as usual, it took my kids to teach me this.
Again, I just feel terrific and can not wait to see what new delights tomorrow will bring.
Love always,
Elizabeth
