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Hi Girls,
I haven't posted anything for awhile but I felt I had to share my joy. I have found a great doctor in my area and have started therapy. She is a wonderful. caring and compassionate person and has helped me begin the final phase of my journey. I will be starting the T blockers on my next visit (April 9th) and then the full hormone regime in about two months .
I can't belive the change that I am going through now. I know it's all mental, but it is definately is having an effect on me physically too. I have never felt so feminine in my life. My wife even says that I have become a much better person, all that hatred stuff is gone. I see the world through different eyes.
I have purged all of my male clothes (except for my Army uniforms) and I just wear womans slacks and jeans, womans tops and shoes on a daily basis. I haven't worn or owned any male underwear in years. I also won't leave the house without a light application of make up. My wife has helped me pick out the right shades of foundation, light mascara and a pale pink lip gloss. People keep telling me I look great but they can't figure out why (Ha Ha). I had my ears pierced and made a visit to a nail salon. I wear a nice light pink shade on my fingernails and anything goes on the toes. By the way Avon makes a great Mousse foundation that blends very well and make your face soooo smooth.
I know eventially I will have to come out to my boss, we'll see how that goes. I don't know if people really notice, but no one seems to care and I don't care what they think anyway.
I don't plan on doing a full transition for a few years yet but for now I feel great and have never been happier or more at peace. As long as I get a weekend or so each month where I can really let Gerri out I'll be okay. I know there is a rocky road ahead but with the support from my wonderful wife and the help of my Dr. I know I'll see it through.
Anyway, I'm sorry for rambleing and there's tons more I could say, but I won't bore you anymore. Thanks for listening.
Luv,
Gerri

Nice to hear things are going well for you Gerri.

I don't see a need to tell your boss until you are ready to go fully female full time, which sounds like it will be few more years.

Gerri: Congratulations on your new-found sense of self! It must be wonderful to have a caring and supportive spouse and now therapist, too. I wish you good health and good times as you adjust to your gradual changes over the next few months.

HI Gerri,

I am very happy that you feel lifted and enlightened and excited by your journey.

My partner began her journey 8 months ago....and the sad thing for me is yes I know she is happy now,but she most certainly does'nt show it...and that is with us not even reaching any of the major hurdels as yet.
The children know,School Teachers,Friends and family yet still I have'nt seena burst of energy brought on by releasing the supressed true identity.
Yes she is on anti-depressants and has even had the dose increased, but it would seem every which way she looks or thinks she is feeling miserable.Like you she is not planning SRS for at least 2 to 3 years....so I just would like to see some happiness expressed,a smile worn on her face that beams this is me and I am proud to be out.

Yes we have children,2 older from my first marriage and 4 with Marie all under 13,yes they have needs and whilst she continues laying carpet she will be forced to give it up...so what to do next,I keep saying you know flooring ..how about a sales rep in a shop,but know this is not an option.(so anyone in Canada or USA,do own a flooring company,because my Marie know's carpet,wood flooring etc inside and out.)

I have'nt worked for 15 years,just of and on,due to the fact that 1 of the kids always gets sick and employers don't like you haveing time of,I usually end up resigning.
At the moment I am trying to get a Counselling Diploma done so I can earn an income to help with the family needs.
At the moment time is being focused on the future in regard to finances and yes it is going to be tuff getting the finances for Marie'S op and copeing with day to day living.

I again say I am very happy for you Gerri,take care of yourself and especially take care of your supporting wife,she is one in a million.

HUgs to you, Penny

Congrats Gerri!! I am so happy for you to be at peace with yourself. You are very lucky to have such a supportive wife.

Penni-- You will make a wonderul therapist. You have been there done that and still pulled others through on your other forum and here. Please remember to take care of yourself.

Anyway, I'm sorry for rambling and there's tons more I could say, but I won't bore you anymore. Thanks for listening.
Luv,
Gerri
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first;
it's okay to ramble on.
2nd;
if you have more,..let it out hun. we're here.
boring? no. it is not boring. we are here for support.
3rd;
listening? yesssssssssssss we WILL listen.

best wishes
ronnie

Hi Gerri,
I agree with Ronnie, it is not boring! There are those here that could greatly benefit from hearing what you are doing and going through. It could help them in making "the decision." So please share with us.
We are all happy for you and hope you will continue to be as fulfilled as you seem to be.
Love,
Virginia

Hi there Gerri! There have been several of us that have posted somewhat regularly here that have found out who we really are, and entered transition. So, you make one more. Congratulations hon. There is another forum kinda like this one that is very supportive for TS, and they answer a lot of questions and are really helpful.

www.beginninglife.com/new

register on the opening page by telling the mods where you are in transition and you get to the good stuff inside. LOL

Good luck Gerri.

Love, Carolynn