Three years ago Today
Posted: Thu May 03, 2007 3:03 am
Hi girls,
Today is my three year anniversary here. Three years ago I came here in the closet, in a bad marriage, extremely depressed hoping that somehow facing my transsexuality might be my saving grace.
Three months after coming here, I had filed for divorce and started dressing full time, even though I could count on my hands all the times I had been fully dressed, before that time.
I will soon be approaching my three year anniversary for living my life as a woman and as that date approaches, my life could not be more different. I met, fell in love and subsequently married Raven(SO), who I just adore. She not only accepts me, but she embraces who I am. She not only does not have a problem with my eventual transition, but she has helped me and pushed me to be more passable.
I know there are those of you who are struggling with your life circumstance. The road ahead may seem impossible or unbearable or just too difficult. I remember when I felt that way. I came here and I seen others who were "out" and seemed to be living happy lives. They went out dressed, their friends and family knew and they accepted who and what they were.
I had remembered that famous Kennedy line "Some people look at the way things are and say 'why?', others dream what has never been and say 'why not?'". I asked myself "why not me?". What made these other people different than me. How is it they were able to come out and live with this gift and I was not?
The answer was, they were no different. They just had the courage and fortitude to face this gift. To refuse to accept a life of unhappiness for the sake of others. To finally take control of my own life. Were there consequences? Sure. I was disowned by a few family members, but really that is about it.
My children all accepted me, my best friends accepted me. I was not shunned by society. In fact I get treated much better as a woman than I ever did as a male. I did not have to worry about losing my job because I am disabled and don't work. I go to college now, but I am well liked and have no troubles there.
Getting to live my life as the woman I always knew I was, is wonderful. I would not change a thing. I just wanted to thank all of you, I really could not have done it without you. I love all of you and wish for you everything I have enjoyed.
Love always,
Elizabeth
Today is my three year anniversary here. Three years ago I came here in the closet, in a bad marriage, extremely depressed hoping that somehow facing my transsexuality might be my saving grace.
Three months after coming here, I had filed for divorce and started dressing full time, even though I could count on my hands all the times I had been fully dressed, before that time.
I will soon be approaching my three year anniversary for living my life as a woman and as that date approaches, my life could not be more different. I met, fell in love and subsequently married Raven(SO), who I just adore. She not only accepts me, but she embraces who I am. She not only does not have a problem with my eventual transition, but she has helped me and pushed me to be more passable.
I know there are those of you who are struggling with your life circumstance. The road ahead may seem impossible or unbearable or just too difficult. I remember when I felt that way. I came here and I seen others who were "out" and seemed to be living happy lives. They went out dressed, their friends and family knew and they accepted who and what they were.
I had remembered that famous Kennedy line "Some people look at the way things are and say 'why?', others dream what has never been and say 'why not?'". I asked myself "why not me?". What made these other people different than me. How is it they were able to come out and live with this gift and I was not?
The answer was, they were no different. They just had the courage and fortitude to face this gift. To refuse to accept a life of unhappiness for the sake of others. To finally take control of my own life. Were there consequences? Sure. I was disowned by a few family members, but really that is about it.
My children all accepted me, my best friends accepted me. I was not shunned by society. In fact I get treated much better as a woman than I ever did as a male. I did not have to worry about losing my job because I am disabled and don't work. I go to college now, but I am well liked and have no troubles there.
Getting to live my life as the woman I always knew I was, is wonderful. I would not change a thing. I just wanted to thank all of you, I really could not have done it without you. I love all of you and wish for you everything I have enjoyed.
Love always,
Elizabeth
