back after some years

[Sarah Ann]

Hello Mány,

Welcome back. I've "given it up" a number of times, finally gave up giving it up.

[Martina H.]

Hi Mány, back.

[Mány B]

Thank you for all your "welcome back" 's, it's like coming in the regular pub again.
I really mean that I was confident, I would not lapse into crossdressing again. I "survived several "home alone" days and when on holiday I didn't take a single female item with me, and I never missed any. (But not wanting to throw away the shoes must have been a sign though.)
But then, once back into crossdressing I must say it hit hard. Both my neighbors were on holiday so I went out dressed in the garden, I took my meals outside dressed in a skirt and top; when night fell I even ventured out in our street, I sort of wanted everyone to know , almost wanted to be caught. So far I never dared to go before! It's a bit scary.

And have a beer or two..…

[Anita]

Mány, you touch on something that I also noticed. I started CDing as a teen; not unusual. This is 1964; I had no idea anyone would ever go out, and I certainly never thought about it myself. I 'quit' at 19 or 20, and didn't think about it much or practice it for 32 years. When it did come back, it was a completely different "package." There was no gradual return of desire; it came back much more strongly, and I also 'knew' that I had to go out--there was no build-up to that, either.

So for some of us, the desire is still at work in the background, and still being processed, even when there's no outward signs or feelings of it.

[Anthony Simon]

Well, you have good beers in Belgium...Don't get caught. It sounds like all those years away might have seen some kind of internal shift where, now you're back to the CDing, you want to do it more intensely.

[Vanesa M]

Hi Mány,
Been through a couple of cycles myself,, seems like, at least for me, when that urge returns, it is stronger than ever. Don't believe there is a cure,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

[April Rose]

I feel like I have been able to keep things on an even keel over a number of years by treating my cross dressing as a habit , rather than a compulsion. When my wife and I became empty nesters, I put some thought into identifying the times of the week that I could depend on being convenient for cross dressing, and I began to dress on those days, whether I was feeling the urge to or not. So far it is working out. My wife has anxiety issues, and this system mitigates them as well. I do the cooking and the bulk of the housework, and she appreciates this, and is fine with me doing them dressed as a woman. There are few surprises,and she knows what to expect. For me, it seems to even things out; I am less frustrated, and it is easier when the time comes to go back to drab.