Marda wrote:Hi Friends,
I'm curious to know about someone here who is already "Successful" in "Everyday, Everything Else" and "Feels" "Frustrated/Closeted" because of "Inhibitions/Fears/Doubts/Hangups/Voices/Etc.???
In other words,"How can everything be so "right"(pickup truck/Country Club/Wife/Kiddies/$$$ +++ and Inside my "Head" I am so "wrong"???
Are you? Sounds to me like you're looking for converts or followers. Trolling for Jesus. If not, my apologies.
Next Question, "Are You Ready To Meet Jesus"??? or, "are you "Prepaid" @ the "Funeral Home"???
I'm Also a former "Funeral Director"!!! and "I Know where You're Going"!!!
Good money in the funeral business. I prefer cremation, mostly because dumping me in the bayou is unsanitary. I'm quite familiar with death, having seen my former wife through the Death With Dignity process, and having served in the military. I'm also an atheist, so the idea of a hereafter, a soul, God, or salvation is absurd, to me. I think we get one shot at it all, and then we're done. If you want to get all philosophical about it, I'm a bundle theorist, but I wouldn't step into a transporter. But that's just how I feel about consciousness. There is nothing after consciousness, at least not until we can get downloaded.
I know where I'm going too. I'm going to die, and so are you and everyone else. Doesn't asking these questions embarrass you? Reading them embarrasses me. But I'll give it a shot.
I don't feel guilty about anything. Regret that I didn't do better or more, that I made some bad choices, that I wasn't more outrageous. About cross dressing? No. I haven't hurt anyone by cross dressing, though I might have amused some.
I've achieved most of my goals in life: contributing something significant to society, being a good provider and father, being a good citizen, and trying to make the world a better place. I know how to be rich and how to be poor, how to say goodbye to a dying friend, how to dream again when my dreams have been shattered. How to love and how to be loved.
Now, at 73, I'm ready to let things go and simply seek my own pleasure and peace of mind. With luck I'll have another 20 years to do so. But I do get annoyed with salesmen, con men, and proselytizers though. Even when they're wearing panties.
