Hi, Darling, and a huge welcome to the Forum!!

That you joined the Forum speaks volumes, and we're glad you're here.
The roller-coaster ride of "accepting" to "totally confused" and all points in between is normal, especially in the very beginning. Feel free to wander around the Forum, and I've just given you access to the GG-only section where you'll find SO's of varying degrees of tolerance, acceptance, and participation.
We're looking forward to your participation, so "ask away", hon!!
*Hugs*
- SL