Gather your courage, girl! It easier than you think.
I remember when I interviewed with the GGA in New Orleans. The first time I picked up the phone I was so scared, I probably held it a full minute before dialing. I remember feeling so nervous and afraid. I kept thinking "what if I run into someone who knows me." or "what if someone finds out about this." The reality is, a person could go nuts always worrying about the "what ifs" in life. So I told myself to just DO IT!
I'm so glad I made that phone call. Even if the organization didn't exactly fit me and my lifestyle, at least it was a start.
This interview was much easier for me. Maybe because I sorta knew what to expect, or maybe because I've done it once before. I'm not sure, but I didn't hesitate or stutter or clam up or anything like that. I really felt comfortable right from the beginning.
I truly hope you find the strength to make contact with the New Haven group. You'll never know if you like it, unless you try.
Joanie, you should delurk more often.
I hope you have the opportunity to get out soon. Don't stay in the stuffy closet too long.
Happy Holidays to everyone.
Kyra