Not a lot of advice Carol since I have no ideas what you should do. You've talked a lot about your wife and what she means to you and I know there is other stuff going on. Sometimes life forces us to make big compromises. I would imagine that if you went full time that the results of this might also might make you very unhappy. Maybe there is some sort of a new middle ground to be reached.
Hang in there. It's always nice to read your posts and I have admired your maturity about things here.
Absaroka
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ChristineK
- Miss Emerald Goddess
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My wife loves me very much and excepts me and even supports my woman side.
OK the screwed up side!!
Did GOD do this to us? Are we retarded? Are we genetic rejects? If GOD made us, we cant be rejects right? Am I different for a reason? Why do I feel so out of place in public when I feel so right at home alone.
Why does the male image I see in the mirror look so wrong to me? Why does the female image look so right?
Why do I feel so ashamed?
To think about all these things and know I am not alone, I know this now but it does not make it any easier. If I met and knew someone like me it may reduce the fear due to you can share the fear. I don't know, I am just speculating due to you could experience it together.
I did not choose to be this way, I am what I am and I am lucky to have a wife that understands. She full well knows I would prefer to wear her cloths to work.
OK the screwed up side!!
Did GOD do this to us? Are we retarded? Are we genetic rejects? If GOD made us, we cant be rejects right? Am I different for a reason? Why do I feel so out of place in public when I feel so right at home alone.
Why does the male image I see in the mirror look so wrong to me? Why does the female image look so right?
Why do I feel so ashamed?
To think about all these things and know I am not alone, I know this now but it does not make it any easier. If I met and knew someone like me it may reduce the fear due to you can share the fear. I don't know, I am just speculating due to you could experience it together.
I did not choose to be this way, I am what I am and I am lucky to have a wife that understands. She full well knows I would prefer to wear her cloths to work.
I have been out for over a year already WOW!
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Vickie P
- Miss Crystal Goddess
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Down and out feeling
Hi Carol ann, I too have those same feelings anf mine has been for many years now. We are not the only ones in this position and with the same feelings and needs. I want my fem life back too but I know it won't happen. I used to go out shopping, to the TRI-ESS meetings etc. But for the last 12 years nothing and it is driving me insane. I'm glad you bounced back. Lots of hugs, Vickie from N.C.
I'm married, 63 used to dress regularly but lost touch with friends but still like to dress at home. Would love to talk with other CD sisters. In all I have almost gone back into the closet after throwing ALL my things away.
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Carol Ann
- Miss Diamond Goddess
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Thank you'al so very very much but Carol Ann is just fine as I needed to say some things to get it off my chest. As most of you know my wife will let me dress everyday when the Grandson is in school and all is well and fine with her. Now when I said "I wanted to go full time" I guess that was just my way of telling her I want to go out and not have to sneak behind her back when I get the chance.
Oh she doesn't know about it but I do, been shopping on the mall, shopping at the big sidewalk sales and never had a problem. Going out to me is the finishing touch of my dressing to prove to myself I can do it and pass in public. Oh well end of this thread,
Oh she doesn't know about it but I do, been shopping on the mall, shopping at the big sidewalk sales and never had a problem. Going out to me is the finishing touch of my dressing to prove to myself I can do it and pass in public. Oh well end of this thread,