I Was Dared

[Ms. Jill]

I was introduced to girl's clothes at the tender age of seven. A male cousin (age 12) dared me to put on a pair of panties and a dress while we were playing a game. I took the dare and changed into the girl's clothes, and as soon as I slipped the panties on and felt the silky fabric next to my skin, I was hooked. I liked the way the dress looked on me but almost as soon as I was wearing the girl's clothes my cousin started teasing me, calling me "girly boy" and I got frightened that he would tell everyone else.

I had three older sisters and after that first time (the dare) I would secretly sneak into their room and try on their panties and dresses. I call this my experimental period because I was trying a little bit of everything. My second sister was six years older than me but she was also the one I could relate to the best. We could talk about anything, and would often spend hours laughing and joking about life. I also told her about my cousin's dare and that I liked the feel of panties, but denied that I ever wore hers .

In the summer of my fifteenth year, my sister was involved in a freak accident and died three weeks before her 21st birthday. I lost a sibling, friend, and mentor. My mom had packed away my sister's clothes in a trunk in the attic of our house. The attic was also my hideaway where I could be alone and grieve for my sister. One day I openrd the trunk and was sorting through her clothes,then decided to put them on so I could feel the presence of her spirit.

Wearing my sister's clothes helped me get through the grief and cope with the loss of my loving sister, and also began my journey into the world of crossdressing. At that time (1961) there weren't the studies and information as there is today and I thought I was the only one in the world who liked to wear girl's clothes. I was ashamed to tell anyone except a female friend who I knew I could confide in. (That will be a future thread). I would sneak away and dress whenever I could but faced many obstacles including military, two marriages, family, and job.

Now that I am a senior citizen, single and free, I can dress any time I desire. I am dressed as I type this introduction, and am proud of myself and the person I've become (Jill). I'm looking forward to the interaction on this forum, and glad to be a member. Luv and Hugs, Jill

[DonnaT]

Thanks for sharing that moving post Jill.

How was/is your relationship with your other sisters, never confide in them?

[Ms. Jill]

Donna, an interesting question indeed. Through the years my other sisters, two older, two younger, (I had five sisters in all, and one brother), have found out about my dressing.
First by discovery, then by my own admission. I never had the same rapport with them as I did with my second sister when I was young. As adults, we have all come to terms with each others quirks and eccenricities, and are able to interact with each other in a non- judgemental fashion. I guess it comes with maturity. I don't openly discuss my dressing with them, and I would never expect any of them to accept Jill. But I still feel a special closeness to sis #2 whenever I dress.

Luv and Jill

[Amelie-Laveau]

Wow, that was some story, I liked reading it.
That was sad that your sister died so young, but you kept her alive within yourself and through the dressing.

There is a French film called Invitation Au Voyage, while not really about cding and such but the ending is similar to what you experienced.

Welcome

[Virginia]

Welcome Jill and thanks for sharing with us. We look forward to your participation. I too enjoyed reading about your journey.

Virginia

[Absaroka]

I'm sorry about the death of your sister.

I remember daring other boys to put on girls clothes. Boys can get away with all sorts of stuff by using dares. I would guess that your friend had tried this himself first.

Absaroka

[Stephanie W]

Thanks for sharing such an emotional story Jill. Glad to have you join us and welcome.

Stephanie

[Ann Stef]

it was nice that you honored your former sister by wearing the clothes from the closet. Now that yopu are retired, like me, you can express your desire by wearing clothes all the time.

[Carla L]

Ms. Jill,

Thank you for sharing your story. I respect how you honored your sister. You will feel warm and welcome here.

[Ann Stef]

It is nice to have three older sisters to guide you thru the experience. the lost of one made you more conscious of the fem life. Nice to enjoy it in later life.