I originally had slipped the nightgown over my clothes (my sisters and I were just goofing around) but when playtime was over I had to take it off and get into my own pajamas. I told Grandma that I wanted to wear the nightgown instead of my regular pajamas - and she let me!!!
My father stopped by Grandmas later that night and the 3 of us were camped out on Grandma's living room floor. As soon as I saw my dad walk in, I quickly threw my blanket over my shoulders so he wouldn't see.
By the time I was 7 or 8 I developed a fascination with hosiery. Pantyhose commercials were all over the TV, Wonder Woman & Daisy Duke were the female icons, and all the little girls in my class wore tights from time to time. How I envied my female classmates! They were a soft & stretchy item and I thought it was unfair that they were for girls ONLY.
It was finally at age 10 when my family and I had moved into a larger house with more than one bathroom. We kept a hamper in the upstairs bathroom and I would often find a pair of my sister's tights or my mother's pantyhose in there. The first time I tried on a pair of Mom's pantyhose, I was in heaven. That soft, silky feel caressing my legs was unlike anything I had ever experienced. Needless to say I would spend many afternoons after school locking the bathroom door & putting on all the pantyhose, tights, and slips my little heart desired. Well, it eventually came to pass that my father thought I was masturbating in there. It was embarassing when we had "the talk" but it would have been 100x worse if he knew the truth! So I just went along with it.
I entered high school in 1986 - the dawn of the SPANDEX era!!! My sister was in college and I of course had a blast with all of her leggings & leotards. I was in spandex heaven. At this point in my life I had seen enough Donahue to have a basic knowledge of crossdressers. But at that time I didn't consider myself one.
Finally, by the early 90s my CDing with Sis's clothes had died down... that is until I went to a club in NYC with some friends! We had gone to the Limelight - there were drag queens and crossdressers all over! While I laughed aloud with my buddies, I was secretly intrigued and wished for the courage to go out in public dressed either in drag or as a regular CD. From this moment on I would periodically go to Victorias Secret & buy pantyhose for myself. I bought a wig from a costume shop. I would spend time in my bedroom just putting on the wig and the clothes. Clothes were not an issue at this point with 2 sisters and a mother with so many dresses & such they were no longer wearing.
Needless to say when I moved out I snuck a few things with me.
I was a full-fledged closet CD from 1993 to 1998. During this time I had still not even attempted to use makeup and still had a goatee.
It was in 1998 that I was really pushed - the engagement between my fiancee and I came to an end. I was so hurt, angry, and disgusted with humanity as a whole that I knew that I had to do something to "shock and piss off the masses" with NO regret whatsoever!
I started going to goth clubs. Most of the guys were already walking around in makeup, skirts and fishnets, playing the adrogynous male role. I bagan to do the same. That Halloween I decided I wanted to dress as a goth girl - fully female. I had a BLAST that Halloween & the girls LOVED it!
Finally in early 1999 I discovered a drag bar in the city and decided to attempt going out fully dressed. It was there that I befriended a drag queen who was also a makeup artist. With the proper techniques and a few months of practice, the rest is history!
