It’s Mother’s day, and I told Mama Bear that I was going to give her a massage, a foot massage, and strip her toe nails and re polish them for her. Just another was to pamper her. She’s been so good to me since I came out to her a month ago, that I thought it was the least I could for her. She loves it when I pamper her so...
The other night I was asking her if she had any warmer Night gowns that I might borrow, as the AC was on and it had gotten kind of cold while we were sleeping. She said yes and told me which drawers they were in, and I started looking through the 2 drawers where she told me. Since her drawers aren’t the models of neatness, I was trying to look around to see what looked nice, but I wound up taking things out one by one and checking them out piece by piece, holding them up so I could see them and determine if it was something I liked or not. When I would find something I liked, I would hold it up and say something like “Hey, this is kinda cute:, or “Hey, this is nice”, trying not to be too excited at this new found place we were going. Every time I found something I liked, she would say, “So try it on”, and I would put it on the bed. After a while she asked if I was going to try on any of them and I told her that I was, but I wanted to go through them first to see what was there and I would try them on after I was done. I wound up finding about six night gowns or nighties, and they all fit. When I asked her if she would mind if I used then sometimes, she told me to use them anytime I wanted to. I told her that was sweet and was she sure, because I don’t want her to think I’m taking all her clothes, (even tho I only dress at home). She then told me, “Honey, I’m just trying to encourage you to be comfortable with this. If it makes you happy to dress, then that’s all I care about.”. The next morning, I was thinking about what she had said the night before, and told her how much I appreciated her and what she said about encouraging me. Then she replied, “Look, you’re 60 years old and I’m 63. If we haven’t done what makes us happy in our lives yet, then we need to hurry up and do them cause time’s moving along on us.” As I was driving to work, I just started to cry, thinking about it. I touched me so. She is a wonderfully understanding woman and I love her so much. We all should be so lucky at some point in our relationships, and all be so understanding of each other. I know...BABY STEPS!!! But when she is the one moving this along, then I have decided to just go with it and let it be what it will be. Thanks for letting me ramble. I love all of the girls here and look forward to our relationships with each other growing more and more over time. TTFN.
Thanks for all your love. All of you girls are great.