grumpy lately

[Marda]

Hi Everygal & pal
Here is a note to apologize if I've been acting a bit "nervey" lately, in my posts
You see, I'm having not only a major personal "breakthrough" and "recovery", these days, but I'm being completely, thoroughly, and totally abused , by the very individuals and organizations to which, my "Care" as a "disabled and "living" Human Being, here in British Columbia, Canada, has been assigned/entrusted , I'm fighting strong and hard, and I'm making small measures of progress, but the abuse is heavy and hard and greatly unjust I'm being betrayed and robbed by "all the wrong people ... legal, medical, and accounting "professionals", quite, illegal, immoral, unethical etc ... all because they take me for a sucker, being a Wheelchair person ... And, So, as it is, they just haven't yet learned to "Don't Mess with MARDA"
Thanx for your patience and support here
Love/Marda

[Anita]

Hi Marda--
I would hope that you can find the inner peace that you spoke of in an earlier post. Our inner strength and comfort for ourselves is the only thing we can rely on. I speak from having gone though 3 years of disruption myself--moving from the place where I spent 20 years, into a whole new world of much stress and struggle, far from the old home. It showed me that my inner resources were lacking, and I had to find more of them within myself.

Meanwhile, you and I have to struggle in the outer world, too, and fight the good fight. It just goes better if you're winning the battles inside yourself, as well as the ones outside. Because it's hard to have clear-cut wins on the outside, and gains come very slowly if they come at all. You don't detail who you're battling, but it sounds like many people and organizations. I'm battling the IRS, a vindictive ex-wife of my partner, and economic uncertainty. We're doing OK at the moment, and it's relatively stable. I'm very grateful. I hope you can see some light in your situation very soon.

[Carol Ann]

Sweetheart I can fully understand your feelings as I am now a total caregiver to my wife of 49 years. Yes more often then I should I become very upset with her as it is one HELL of a job. But down deep I gather myself, regroup and try to start all over with a smile on my face. Yes I understand your problem very very much.

[Marda]

Hi, friends, it sure helps to have an encouraging word here, thanks so much
The especially difficult part for me now, is to pace myself and measure myself out very carefully, since I'm still dangerous on my feet and vulnerable to accidents due to fatigue, and, since "stress" of any significant level/nature, can be very dangerous to any stroke survivor, I'm extremely disappointed that people who were in positions of trust and responsibility for overseeing/assisting me through my recovery, have been so carelessly heaping more stress and problems onto me
The "UP" side to thisI believe is found in a quote from a favourite book in my Dad's library, "The New Dictionary Of Thoughts" ... "Adversity is the diamond dust, with which Heaven polishes its' jewels" ... I'm Going to be so good when this trouble is over
Love/Marda