How I became who I am

[Madelline]

I started dressing when I was pre teen, although when my parents found out I was thoroughly punished but I couldn't see that there was anything wrong with crossdressing. As I got older it was my parents decision that I should be involved in more testosterone fueled activities like being a soldier. Once this was over some 4 years later, I had a place of my own and ended up buying clothes and trying make up. Eventually led to me having an entire wardrobe then, my life changed with a relationship that resulted in me disposing of everything to pursue a relationship that resulted in my son but I could never tell her about my desires.

The relationship ended, mainly because she knew I had a secret that I would not divulge, by the end of the relationship she assumed I was gay or something like that.

Now I still spend time with my son of 5 years old but have not got the courage to tell her as it may result in me never seeing him again. I have replaced my wardrobe, changed my look, better make up and a few stores that are easy to purchase from like a wig store in Chatham, here they don't care as long as they get a sale and it is so much better than choosing online as I can see the hair before I buy. So that's me I hope my story doesn't offend.

Madelline

[Anthony Simon]

That's sad, that you lost your marriage through not being able to tell about your CDing. In your intro post, you mentioned that you were "incredibly shy". It looks to me that your shyness might have played a part in your not being able to tell.

I just love wig shopping. Quite often they seem to enjoy having a CD for a customer.

[Madelline]

Sorry, I was never married, she never wanted to get married and still doesn't. She had a child before we met and he calls me dad and then she became pregnant with a child that was my first, I love both of them and I usually have them for the weekends while she goes off and does whatever she wants, this means I end up being dad until they go to bed, then I can be Madelline until the early hours.

Madelline xx

[Diana Michelle]

Madeline I admire your devotion to your son as well as your "step" child. I don't have children of my own but have two stepdaughters from my first marriage and I couldn't love them any more if they were my own. I now have 4 step grandchildren as well and even though they are old enough to know there is no blood I have always been and hopefully will always be Grandma. Sadly I have a stepson from my second marriage but to call that relationship strained would be polite. His mother turned him against his father after their divorce and I became part of the fallout of that.

[Requal Jo]

Madelline, your story does not offend and thank you for sharing. I sincerely hope that the situation with your children continues to be positive.

[Pam T.]

Your story doesn't offend me and I am glad that you are happy and doing what you want to do and only you can be happy by allowing yourself to be happy and we all have bumpy roads to get where we are at. I am a newbie here but Welcome regardless.