Simple freedom to be

[Anne Bonny]

Today I took a bill out to my own mail box kind of irritated internally afterall I do have the right to be who I am in my own home and on my own property, but you know what? I still looked out the windows prior to see no activity in my only neighbor's yard, no fishermen parked and out of sight over the bank fishing.

The Hospice aid is coming to provide a bath and morning care for my dying wife but she has seen Anne many times, even were the social work or the RN to stop by neither of who are expected they all know Anne.

Tomorrow My wife's very old, conservative and religious mother along with my wife's very Catholic friend are coming over so I will present my masculine self with all feminine items stowed out of sight. Were they ever to discover anything...well fine I would come out to them but not willingly on purpose because neither would accept who I am, they would take my Anne side, well all of who I am as needing to see a psychiatrist and it would change their dealings with me for the rest of their lives and how they think about me. But I have chosen myself to handle certain people this way...especially having to see them every other week until my wife dies. It just makes life easier with no drama. Once my wife is gone...I no longer care what they think and will probably not see them any more. I do not want such people in my life especially if their views are hardened and resistant and will be their entire life.

I do find dressing most all of the time as I please in my home wonderful because I am able to be whoever I am whenever I please and If I want to drive to the ATM who's going to stop me?

[Carole Hill]

I am sorry about your wife being ill. I understand your frustrations re: being able to present yourself as you would like. However, sometimes it is better to choose a path of less resistance; ie. pick your battles carefully.

Good luck.

[Anne Bonny]

Thanks Carole, exactly. Personally I really cannot see it any differently Pick the battles, and reducing drama in my life which I do not need and being happy with everyone else.

I have come to realize I am very hyper on the subject of religion in general because very few who espouse religion would be accepting of us. Rather they continue to poison all of society against us with their influence on traditional, conventional values. To me those of serious traditional faith stand against us as much as racial bigots stand against those of a race opposite theirs. And I am angry about it because it is equivalent the same thing, it is a form of bigotry practiced against our community (LGBTQ).