new member- Lizzy B

Lizzy B · Post by **Lizzy B** » Fri May 07, 2004 9:13 am

Hi, I just found this site a couple of days ago and have read many of the posts and thought I'd join. I'm in my late 20s and have been a CD since I was a little boy...my story is probably not all unique. I have two older sisters, seven and five years older than me. My dad traveled a lot and my mom also worked, so quite often my then 13 and 11 year old sisters babysat me when I was only 6. I don't know why it started, perhaps because I was the only boy and clearly my mom's favorite, but they used to play dress up with me when I was six and would "pretend" I was their naughty little sister. I didn't know what to do or so, so I went along with them. They'd dress me in their dresses, tights, etc., and put lipstick on me and make me pretend I was a girl. After awhile I just accepted it and found that I didn't really mind it as it actually felt comfortable to me. In any event, this lasted for a few months then stopped, but I was pretty much "hooked" after that and have dressed off and on ever since. I live alone now, having recently split with a girlfriend who couldn't accept Lizzy, in fact she felt terribly threatened and left me. So now I'm at a crossroads because I do want a relationship, but just don't know how to handle the CD aspect. I've gone out several times as a CD and can pass fairly reasonably and do enjoy it. So that's my story.

Loretta Ann · Post by **Loretta Ann** » Fri May 07, 2004 12:18 pm

here Lizzy B,

I hope this place turns out be all you envision it to be.

Virginia · Post by **Virginia** » Fri May 07, 2004 4:51 pm

Hi Lizzy,
WElcome to our world! No your story is not unique, but you have a unique opportunity now and its how you develop this gift! I always point new girls to the following web site and hope they will print it off and read and study it and see if it conforms to where they are in this great adventure.
"Jung's Anima Theory and How it Relates to Crossdressing."
http://ourworld.compuserve.com/homepage ... /anima.htm
Carl Jung is considered by many to be the father of modern psychology.
Let us know what you think. Again, welcome.
Love,
Deborah

Karen Marie · Post by **Karen Marie** » Fri May 07, 2004 5:01 pm

welcome lizzy,
your story is like so many of us girls.cding is a part of who we are
as individuals.i'm sure that you will be very comfortable here.there
are so many wonderful, inciteful girls here to lend you a hand.on
having a relationship,you need to be upfront right from the start as to who
you are.i had some sad experiences until i met deb.just remember,there
is someone out there for you.good luck,
bunches of hugs,karen.

Lorna · Post by **Lorna** » Fri May 07, 2004 6:59 pm

Hi Lizzy!

You'll eventually come to realize that there are women out there who are open whereas they're perfectly fine with a boyfriend who crossdresses. Girls I have dated in the past used to give me bras & panties all the time!

As long as you're honest up frint with a potential girlfriend & do not try to hide this part of yourself, you'll meet the right lady soon - I guarantee.

Beauty · Post by **Beauty** » Fri May 07, 2004 7:44 pm

Hi Lizzy,

It's great to have you here. I'm glad you wandered around for a while and had saw this was the kind of place you wanted to join.

I wish I'd had the sisters you had.

I'm glad you were able to move away from someone who wouldn't accept you for you. I'm sad that you couldn't be with her and have her accept you, but in the long run this is best for you.

I look forward to reading more about you.

Beauty

Love (SO) · Post by **Love (SO)** » Fri May 07, 2004 7:49 pm

Hi Lizzy!

Glad you have joined this great group!

GalicianGirl(SO) · Post by **GalicianGirl(SO)** » Fri May 07, 2004 10:01 pm

Hi Lizzy,
Welcome to our forum!!! Glad you decided to join our little group!!!

Shaon(SO)

Elizabeth · Post by **Elizabeth** » Fri May 07, 2004 10:04 pm

Welcome Lizzy,
I have not been here long, but I have found it a tremendous source of strength and knowledge. I too was dressed up by my sisters who were 4 and 5 years older than me. They used to dress me up, and put me in a baby buggy, and tell everyone I was thier little sister. I wish you all the best, am glad you are here.
Elizabeth

Lizzy B · Post by **Lizzy B** » Sat May 08, 2004 2:35 am

Oh thank all of you so very much for your very kind and thoughtful replies. I know it's a tough time for me, but I'm trying the best I can to get through it and hope that with all of your insight I can live a more complete life. I've been in and out of therapy as well, and have learned a great deal about myself, my sisters and overall family situation. My sisters have been through therapy as well and we've discussed so many things between us to try and figure out where we've been and why things happened as they did...my older sister was apparently being abused by my father who had left us shortly after the revelations came out. All these years later she has essentially stated that she began "dressing" me because if there was another girl in the house in addition to our other sister, then maybe he would stop...oh so many things have come out. I know all these years later that she was terribly harmed by him, but he is long gone and out of our lives. My mother was basically "frozen" by all this and refused to talk about it...she knows about Lizzy B but is totally unaccepting. Well my second sister has been my true "Godsend" as she has stood by me and has always felt terribly guilty about what happened to our older sister as well as what she did in dressing me up and treating me as a girl...I do want some sort of "normal" existence, but find that the desire to dress as a woman sometimes overwhelms everything else.

Heather Gail · Post by **Heather Gail** » Sat May 08, 2004 5:03 am

Hi Lizzy...I'm new here too and have spent a lot of time reading many, many posts and yours was so inspiring but I can only imagine the hurt your family felt by what went on. It seems your sister dressed you to perhaps deflect attention from herself, but in the process started you on a road to a different type of existence. Well, I'm searching for "peace" as well and hope you attain it too. good luck..Heather

Virginia · Post by **Virginia** » Sat May 08, 2004 12:38 pm

Lizzy, Thanks for telling us more about yourself. Most of your sisters here accept their CD'ing as a gift. The ability to transition is a wonderful experience. What you stated about "normal" CD'ing is normal for us. What you may want to control is not letting it get out of control. When it begins affecting your lifestyle, it is time to reappaise what you want out of life. Some of our sisters transition to a 24/7 lifestyle and there is nothing wrong with that. Others, begin taking female hormones (first - over the counter) then some graduate to prescribed medicine and then is when you start considering the big step -SRS. You are the only one who will decide what road you wish to travel, but regardless we are here for you and look forward to traveling with you!/
Love,
Deborah

Josey · Post by **Josey** » Sat May 08, 2004 9:02 pm

HI Lizzy,

It is great to have you here with us.

I agree with Beauty. Having sisters is very nice when one likes to wear these clothes. Of course, there were some serious problems in your life which have affected you and your life but, as an only child, I still feel it is great to have sisters. I do look forward to your remaining an active member of our family.

Lizzy B · Post by **Lizzy B** » Sun May 09, 2004 6:04 am

Thank you Deborah for your post and you too Josey...I'm really confused right now and realize I have to both go through the pain of losing my girlfriend as well as contemplating the approach of my 30th birthday. I think both have given me a lot of room for thought and perhaps it is the right time to sort things out. My desire to cross dress has increased greatly these last few weeks as I feel totally free from living the closeted life I lived with my girlfriend. That desire clearly outweighed my relationship to the point where if she couldn't accept me for who I am, then as hurtful as it has been, I knew we couldn't be together anymore. But the flip side is her departure has unleashed Lizzy as never before. I went out en femme last night again and felt for the first time that perhaps I was a failure as a man and would have to seriously consider another lifestyle. My second to oldest sister lives near me and she feels I'd be happier living as Lizzy...she's been there for me all the way and knows me better than anyone. She's shopped with me, has helped with makeup and accessories, and feels I'm as much of a woman as she. I really think she wants me to change and it has made me all so confused. She helped me get ready last night and I have to say that when I went out with her last night (dinner and to a club) I was completely and as totally feminine as any other woman. This is a great place to "talk" and let known my feelings...thank all of you so very much. Lizzy

Heather Gail · Post by **Heather Gail** » Sun May 09, 2004 10:56 am

Hey Lizzy, it sounds as though you're really unsure as to who you may be and I really feel for you. I get the sense that you are truly at a crossroads, and perhaps this point in your life is a turning point for you as well. You've mentioned the recent split with your girlfriend and its effect on you...have you been involved with other girls/women and has your dressing been an issue in those relationships? I have been married for over 20 years and still haven't really disclose/discussed this with my SO and it has become a real problem for me of late as my desires to dress have become greater and greater...I am very concerned that I may just push her away from me as she just isn't very accepting...

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new member- Lizzy B

new member- Lizzy B

hi lizzy,