Here is my continuation...
How wonderful life can be if only we have the courage to play the hand we're dealt in a way that is beneficial to everyone around us as well as being self fulfilling. Like so many other CDs it took me along time to fully learn this lesson. But I believe that I have finally learned, and I can say without any reservation that I like being me. And yes, that includes the part of me that is a crossdresser. It is a matter of setting priorities and maintaining balance.
How would you answer the following question? If a pill were invented that could eliminate any trace of your crossdressing would you take it? Recently, my sister asked me that question which earlier had been asked of her.
After thinking about it for a while my response was an emphatic no. Perhaps this appears to be a strange answer, given the many difficult problems a crossdresser encounters in life. Certainly, taking such a pill would eliminate all such problems, but it also would erase an important part of me, a part that has exercised my emotions greatly and in the process helped me to develop far greater sensitivity and compassion. I wouldn’t want to lose that.
Besides I enjoy dressing up and going out, and I finally am becoming very comfortable with who I am. Certainly, I enjoy being a guy, especially being a husband. But I also like my feminine side, and I absolutely adore dressing up and permitting my second self to come forward.
When I am crossdressed, I have always tried to be a lady, and I find that the same genteel qualities that I have tried to develop when Vicki is out of the closet have helped me to become more compassionate. Certainly, experiencing some of the prejudical behavior to which women are subjected every day has made me more sensitive to what my wife must put up with.
In turn, my wife was asked whether she would want me to take such a pill. Certainly, the removal of crossdressing from our relationship would eliminate an area of concern for her, but without hesitation, she also said no. She reasoned that crossdressing is very much a part of me and to have my second self disappear would be like having part of me die, and she did not want that to happen.
Well dear sisters, both CDs and spouses and SOs, how would each of you answer this question. Consider it carefully; you may gain insights into yourself.
Love
VickiCD
