Moi.... wierd... nah

Bernice · Post by **Bernice** » Sat Jul 17, 2004 11:13 pm

Leave it to me to be last to the party...

MegaDittoes (if I dare say that without unintended political implications).

From about age 7, when I began substituting food for friends and got fat, I became very much a loner. I was terrible at sports, and so of course hated sports - still pretty much do - even just watching. Never saw any attraction in bars and drinking or smoking (probably a good thing, from what I've seen it do to some people), or recreational drugs (same issues).

I came to feel that I was weird, and would rather be alone. It wasn't until after I learned to fly that I discovered I actually liked to have someone along to share the beauty from "up there". It wasn't until after I was able to carpool with a co-worker for a few months that I realized how much fun it was to have a social life during a long commute. It wasn't until I got a mobile ham radio in my car that I realized how much faster the trip seemed when there were good people to talk to - and listen to.

I make very few friends in person. Those that become friends only stay friends if we can learn to disagree. So many people simply cannot accept differing viewpoints on anything, let alone something really important to them.

So, I'm weird. But in middle age, I have accepted my weirdness - even embraced it. I'm not the evil person my delusional boss thinks I am. But I can tick people off, if they get upset when I don't see something the same way they do.

I also used to rock the boat. I tried to make a difference. Now I mostly feel it isn't worth the pain.

I am still amazed to come here and see what others write, and how well we seem to get along - at least most of the time.

I love you people!

Hugs,

Bernice

Rebecca · Post by **Rebecca** » Sun Jul 18, 2004 1:38 am

Hi Bernice,

Some good points there in your post, socially I still have some problems being accepted for who I am even in my drabbies. It seems the more I lose the stiff upper lip, or the less I pose, or show a tough exterior, the more I get called wierd, however after a time, ( sometimes a long time, unfortunately ) people start to realize that there is more than meets the eye and begin to look deeper. Usually they like what they see, but I have to be patient in allowing people to catch up.
As for rocking the boat, yep, I know what you mean. The only way I'll ever make a difference is to accept myself, and show by example.

And yes, we do seem to get along overall, don't we.

Love
Rebecca xxx

PS- last to the party ? What an entrance

Kristen · Post by **Kristen** » Tue Jul 20, 2004 12:17 am

Rebecca, By now you know that you are not alone, I thought I'd add my 2 cents worth. Grew up the same as the rest, I was very skinny, picked on , not by the big kids , but kids who wanted to be and weren't. Remember being 12 at high school Hockey game listening to the pep band , wanting so bad to be the snare drummer, and a high school bor looked at me and Said" ARE YOU A BOY OR ARE YOU A GIRL. Stuck with me all these years, I still don"t have the answer, BUT it is becoming clearer , I think I am Both. Threw myself into Music and Drama in high school. Still looked on as a weirdo, crossdressed all through highschool, but was ashamed and felt even weirder. I still am weird, but I like it. Feel the same way Rebecca does about this forum, you girls are so helpful, I now feel proud buying things I used to be ahsamed of, I can only thank you girls for being here, listening and giving support to everyone, I don't know how I ever kept my sanity with out all of you. My panties thank you My bras thank you, my skirts thank you, My panty hose thanks you and I thank you .....Kristen

Rebecca · Post by **Rebecca** » Wed Jul 21, 2004 1:24 pm

Hi Kristen,

You know what.. your'e right. Maybe it's time to be proud of being wierd. I think I'll start campaigning for wierd rights

"hey, there's a wierd pride march next week, wanna' go"
I wanted to reply to your post earlier, but have been so busy this last few days, every time I got near the computer, I'd be a post or two in and get interupted.
We live in a strange world. On the one hand we are encouraged to act macho in a parody of caveman days, and on the other hand we are encouraged to show the gentler side of our nature.
It seems people get called wierd when an insecure person sees someone living on the opposite side to which they are on. It makes for an easy target.
You are absolutely right about this site helping to keep insanity at bay. It is doing me the power of good

Love
Rebecca xxx

Kristen · Post by **Kristen** » Wed Jul 21, 2004 8:09 pm

Hi Rebecca , Thank you for being so wierd, I would not feel comnfortable any other way. Even my answer machine message is so weird. I talk like a mixture of Andy Coffman on Taxi and Red Skelton. My brother called my after I did this last one and said" What a Dumbass, talk to you later". ?He thought it was funny but weird.

I think it is totaly assume that we can understand what all of us have been through. It's like we all have such similar experiences, even though we are half a world away we can identify with each other. I think this site, and the people that contribute are the bestest thing ever. Makes me what to rush out and tell people Hey guess what I'm wearing panties and I love it. I gess it's a matter of how much we can educate people about crossdressing .
Reminds me of Seinfeld show about gay's the running joke was , Not that that matters but I'm not gay. I like womens clothes, I'm not gay, " "not that it matters". Any way enough rambling. Glad that you think I'm right , that doesn't happen alot , thank you. ......Kristen

Jassmine(SO) · Post by **Jassmine(SO)** » Thu Jul 22, 2004 1:33 pm

Howdy

Rebecca wrote:

You know what.. your'e right. Maybe it's time to be proud of being wierd. I think I'll start campaigning for wierd rights "hey, there's a wierd pride march next week, wanna' go"

Count me in!! ##oo##

*Hugs*