Help is always needed

[Gelinda]

Well, I have been away for a few days, I missed the new big topic and I am a little disappointed that it is locked so I could but my two cents in. But Beauty did what needed to be done I quess.

My feelings of this forum are very strong, as in any group setting their are so many different people, ways of thinking an doing, and truly believeing. I have always been afraid of saying the wrong thing on this forum or even doing any thing that would make someone upset. When we write something we can only know what we are thinking and what we are attempting to say. I know that I have a very weak writing ability and one of my worst fears is that I will write something in the wrong way and hurt someone. But in any writing or speaking you can only do your best to say what you mean and hope that meaning comes out. But with a forum this broad with so many different countries and different people envolve toes are going to be stepped on, Because we cant understand the up bringing of others or what their true beliefs are.

I know others as I do my self are so much better off because we found this forum. I feel so much better about myself now that it is un-believeable and it is because I can say almost anything here. On July the 5th, I had a bad bad time and this board helped me so much. It did not stop me from doing what I did (Got Drunk after 14 years), but it helps me now to hopefully make it another 14 or more years before doing it again.

I have stated before, that I use this forum for my journal. In this I mean that what ever is bothering me for the most part (cant do everything do not want to get kicked off this forum). I have a locked box that I have kept my journals in for years. I have destroyed them now as I have this forum instead. The journal is a place to put my worries and my thoughts to get rid of them or to work on them. Well I see this forum as a thought magnet to help me with my inner most feelings and to see the inner most feeling in a new light that my book journal could not do.

So I will stop rambling on as I do a lot, but I truly want to thank all of you and I do mean all of you for caring and allowing me to open my mind and heart in this way. I believe that this forum is a much better doctor for me than any doctor could be.

Sincerely and with deep feelings of Love (which not a word I use very often) Gelinda.

[Rebecca]

Gelinda,

Iv'e been agonising the same myself, when I try to say something I usually muck it up somehow. What you have written there has filled me with a real joy. You are bang on target

Aw, I was enjoying you rambling on, for me, you can ramble all day

Love to you too
Rebecca xxx

[Lorna]

Hi Gelinda, it's great to have you back.

Wow - you and I we both think and feel very much alike! I consider both of us to be straight shooters with whatever we feel at any given moment. And like you this forum has also helped me through many a tough time this year (and for those of you who have followed my posts since the beginning of this year - it's been quite a roller coaster!!) When I was down I too began to abuse the alcohol myself, spending many nights sitting in this little apartment drinking and feeling sorry for myself and whatever bad situation I was in.

** Side note - I no longer drink alone or upset, and I have also quit smoking after 14 years. Most of the thanks for that go to the wonderful people of this forum!

I've faced a lot of struggles this year but there have been shining moments as well - the Miss Auntie Ems Pageant, doing standup comedy for the first time, and going to the Invasion of the Pines.

We discussed this in PM, but I think that it's all a part of who we really are sharing our true feelings whether good or bad. To me the sharing of feelings has always been a true sign of womanhood!

I'm very proud of you, Gelinda, and I am happy to have met you (and everyone else) on this forum! *hugs*

[Marda]

Hi Gelinda

Poor Beauty ... I have some spies in the control room and apparently all the guages on the servers were
*Flashing* *CHINA SYNDROME* *EVACUATE IMMEDIATELY* :-))

Marda, as the medical professionals say, used to "self-medicate" :-) Well, that's part of my background story ... when I stopped puffing BCBud (potent s**t) I purged my wardrobe and tried to go "straight"

Well, here I am ... Marda ... that's me ... and *Proud To Be Me* ... but I don't use dope anymore and I have about 1 beer (Heineken) per year just for "old times's sake"

I hope you'll do somemore Creative Writing ... and I *Hope* you will let that *LOVE* word come out whenever you can :-) That's the best therapy there is ... *INKREASE LOVE*

Love / Marda

[Virginia]

Gelinda,
I am so happy to read your successes. Remember what we have always said. "small steps honey, small steps!" You are well on your way and we are all so happy for you!!!!
Love,
Deborah

[Loretta Ann]

Gelinda,

Thank you for posting this. It reflects growth, and that is like music to my ears.

[Kristen]

Gelinda, I have always felt you were a articulate writer, straight forward and very honest. I think your are a wonderful writer, I read your posts with great anticatpation. You should give your self an "a" for being you .
As for me, I am not a great thinker such as some of the girls, I just came here for support and friendship. But I am learning how to write better, and my focusing skills have come a long, I thank you girls for helping with both of those things. I have always been the quiet one, in school as a child, and even at work now.
I've watch you grow quite a bit since I came to the forum , I like it. .......................Kristen

[Beauty]

Hi Gelinda!

Thank you for the support!

It's always weird to lock a thread. It's not easy. If it looks like my decisions to do it are then I just want to let the forum faithful know it's not.

Ok.. so back to the reason I really responded.

Your post shows that the forum is getting back to it's normal loving and supporting self!! A Moderator AND member's dream!
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I want to join in and say that I too love your posts Gelinda and the you that's here with us now is not the same one that joined. You've allowed yourself to show your beautiful insides.

As you can see there are LOTS of Gelinda fans here. Me being one of them.

Thanks again for your support there sweetie!

Beauty