I love being me now.

[Elizabeth]

Hi girls,

I went out yesterday fully dressed with my youngest son age 10. He did not go into the bank with me because he was worried about what people might think. He wanted to go out with me, but once we started I could see he was upset, so I told him to just stay in the car while I went into the Bank, I left the car running with A/C and locked the doors and ran into the bank.

After we left there he told me that he was not ashamed of me, but he was just worried. So I suggested that he could go to Wal-Mat with me but he could go in before me, buy what he needed, and I would follow him. That way no one would know he was with me, and he could see that no one treated me different, and if they did, it was to be extra nice to me.

It went off just as I thought, and I followed him in line, but by the time I was leaving he was waiting for me just past the Checkout, and now felt quite comfortable being with me, even though I was fully dressed in girls clothes, lipstick, and a little mascara, earrings nails polished and a girls wallet.

He talked to me all the way to the car about how it was really no big deal and he had been worried for nothing. I told him I felt the same. Except of course being out as me just makes me so happy there is not words. And to be out with my son, and not only the society being accepting of me, but also my son, just put the biggest smile on my face, and his too.

Today I was looking for a book and had to go to several book stores to find it. Again I was fully dressed, lipstick, mascara, bracelet, watch, nails, shoes. Blue coulettes and this really great blouse that I don't know how to describe, except to sayt that it was extremely feminine. with long loose sleeves that flare at the end with ruffles. and likewise have the same flare and ruffles at the bottom of the blouse.

Finally I went to Walden Books in this shopping plaza and when I entered a very attractive woman in her early 40's, tall and dirty blond hair asked if she could help me. She had nice makeup and red lipstick and a beautiful smile.

I put my arms slightly away from my body palms up in the, here I am gesture, and said "I don't want to shock you but?" and as I did I looked down at my body head to toe. And when I looked up she looked very concerned like she was worried that I was going to say or do something more shocking than coming in her store crossdressed. And just as the worry on her face peaked I said "Do you have 'Do your own divorce in California?'" It totally cracked her up and she started laughing and got a huge smile on her face and "Come on" and motioned me with her hand to follow her.

She took me right to the book, got it down and handed it to me, still smiling and I said "Well it is kinda funny". She smiled big again and asked me if I needed anything else. I told her "no" and she led me to the checkout and I paid, she thanked me and I left.

I later had to go to Kinko's where a very nice young woman and man, both in thier early 20's treated me just great.

Finally, I am taking my kids to the beach tomorrow, so we needed a "Boogie Board". For those of you not near an ocean, it is like a small foam surfboard, used to bodysurf the waves. My 13 year old son asked if he could go with me. I told him he did not have to go, if it was just to try to make me feel good. He assureed me that he was not embarrased of me, and just wanted to go. So we went, but they did not have a boogie board. My son suggested that we go to another Wal-Mart to try to find one, which we did and found one.

It was also a great trip. We talked and laughed and joked and were just ourselves. Everyone treated me great. So now all of my kids have seen for themselves that this crossdressing thing is nothing to fear. No one really cares. They now all realize that I am the same dad they have always known. Perhaps in a different package, but still the same. And the way I interact with my kids is just the same as it always has been, no matter how I am dressed, and that is how they treat me

We confronted myth with truth, we confronted the unknown with real life experience, we confronted fear with love. And the feeling of love between me and my children has never been so strong, and not just between me and them, but also between them.

But now that I can finally be me? Everywhere, at home and in public. I just love being me, and would not want to be anyone else. I never thought I would feel that way.

I am not a crossdresser. I am a person, a loving, caring person, who happens to crossdress. And as usual, it took my kids to teach me this.

Again, I just feel terrific and can not wait to see what new delights tomorrow will bring.

Love always,
Elizabeth

[SophieLawson]

Elizabeth!

This is fantastic, I really am so proud of you and wish everyone could be like your kids. They sound great, you've obviously brought them up well.

I can't imagine what it must be like walking around dressed during the day, but judging from your post it must just feel natural. I know when I go out in the evenings just for lil walks I just feel so relaxed and natural.

The cool thing is that when you say I love being me, that is sooo how I am feeling right now too. Only problem for me is I am not as confident as you are just yet, I want to get out and tell the whole world that I am me but I'm still afraid.

I think this post really has given me hope Elizabeth, when I step outside during the day for the first time in the future I will be thinking of you that's for sure

Sophie xx

[Loretta Ann]

Hey Elizabeth,

Me thinks you are beginning to love yourself.

[Merinda]

WOW! Elizabeth that is fantastic,

I posted a description of a dream I had the other day if you remember ,
in the dream I was known and accepted as Merinda by the community.

Well Elizabeth ,
It appears that its no longer a dream for you , WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF REALITY congratulations
( insert standing ovation from group )

[Jadeanne]

Elizabeth,

I'm one of the ones standing and applauding

Congratulations

Jadeanne

[Elizabeth]

Hi girls,

Thanks so much. The trip to the beach today was great. My kids had a great time, the weather was perfect. and What can you say about Malibu?

Anyway, I know it may seem I am rushing things, but it has always been my nature to confront things as soon as possible and when you think about it, I have not really rushed, I mean I have been crossdressing since I was 11.

I have always taught my kids to be respectful not only of all races, but also religions, sexual preferences, mental capacity. I wanted them to judge people "by the content of thier character", not thier label. I guess being a crossdresser I have always been keenly aware that we are more than just our cover.

As for the public? Well I do live in what is arguably the liberal place in the US. However, having said that, I do live in one of the most conservative parts of California. Our State and Federal representatives are Republican(no thanks to me). I beleive most of it is an attitude in CA of change. Trends always start here, so it is not uncommon for people to be doing things that are not common. No one really cares. It is a live and let live society.

Or maybe I really just don't care what John Q Public thinks anymore. But it does seem I get treated better when dressed. As if people are extra worried about offending me and be accused of violating Political Correctness, so they go out of thier way to be nice. Also, It makes me so happy I am always smiling and glowing when out dresed. That might be making people respond to me in a postive way.

I know my kids interact with me exactly the same, dressed or not dressed.

It just keeps getting better and better each and every day.

Love always,
Elizabeth

[CJ]

Hi all,

Elizabeth:

your weekend--

your kids--

your feelings about yourself--

your life--

you--

Love,
CJ

[Jassmine(SO)]

Hey Elizabeth

Such awesome news ##oo## ##oo## I am so very happy for you!

*Hugs & Love*

[Virginia]

Tears of joy for you, girl!!!!!
I am soooo proud of you and somewhat jealous! Is everyone in your family brilliant!!??? Smart Dad, smart kids - just fantastic!!!!
You are no doubt not only our resident "Oak Tree" but if anyone is looking for a model to "Keep the Faith" Girls- here she is!!!!!!!!
Love ya,
Virginia

[Lorna]

Hi Elizabeth,

This is wonderful!! I'm glad that you had such a great day out with the kids. What a great day out.

Although I have always loved the old you, I must say, the new you kicks butt!!

Look out world, here comes the REAL Elizabeth!!